I have finally decided it is time I returned and resumed my learnings! After about a year of only half-heartedly performing the exercises and such, I have now gotten myself into a rigorous routine and am now definitely getting a "feel" for the exercises more, rather than just going through the motions. This time it feels so different too! It's funny, but in some ways Harry Potter has helped me to see where I was going wrong before.
It's like, if you're a wizard in the Harry Potter world, you don't just learn the spells, practice them after class and then carry on with life as normal. If you want to close a cupboard, you USE the appropriate spell! In some ways that was my problem - I would do the exercises, but never incorporated them into my day-to-day way of living. If you want to be a Shaman, you have to BE a Shaman, not just KNOW a bunch of techniques! This time I can really feel that crossing over of my thoughts and beliefs and it feels great! 
Anyway, enough rambling, I did actually have a point here.
I have been recapping some things lately and it has taken me to a memory from my childhood - a particularly vivid memory (or powerful anyway). The thing is I have not felt a *lot* of emotion from it. I remember once hearing that you know a memory is taken care of when there is no emotional charge left to it. The problem is this memory doesn't feel that emotional, yet there is a strong voice in me saying to keep working with it anyway. I suppose the analogy I have is it feels like a scab - right now I am dealing with picking the scab off. It might feel dry on top, but once it's picked off all the juice starts flowing! I'm just wondering if people have had similar experiences, where a memory FEELS fairly bland to them but, as they persevere, they then discover that a lot more emotion and energy is trapped within it than they first realised? Or do you think I should just leave it and take it on faith that since it doesn't feel emotional there probably is no emotion there?Also, can anyone please tell me where the forums are for those who have done classes? I can't seem to find it!
Thanks,
Milan/Twilite
