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  2. Hi Wildflower, I have read all your posts and I'm sure it was already suggested to you, but I would consider giving recapitulation a try - https://www.shamanscave.com/self-healing/the-recapitulation It will help you regain you energy and gradually you'll get stronger and stronger. If you do it, I would suggest starting out with day-to-day events, like recapping your current day at the end of it and not dwelve right into the most intense/traumatic memories. I know it's not the kind of answer you maybe want to hear, but no matter how exhausted you are feeling, no one can take
  3. I will and have considered it. Im just that exhausted right now to the point I am ready to almost check myself into a healing center somewhere so I asked. When I am stronger I may do that
  4. Hi Wildflower, Have you considered taking classes here yet? We're a 'healing center', in a sense- one that teaches you how to do it yourself without telling you what to believe in. It's very hard work, but ultimately rewarding. : ) S
  5. Does anyone know of a healing center out there in the USA that takes people like myself?
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  7. I know I have made a few posts here. I apologize if they have been somewhat jumbled if they were. It was over a year with warring spirit spouses and I was not aware such things existed. I was visited with gifts, roses, the creation of spirit children, and also spirits that wished to suck the life out of me. I also had an ancestral spirit spouse which was my father who became very domineering and jealous. The spouses would war one another and the children were also caught in a battlefield. It was confusing to me because of the different perspectives from the shamanic beliefs on these
  8. {{Wildflower}} I think you've seen from all the responses that everyone here is genuinely reaching out a hand to help you and believes in you. I wish there were shortcuts but there aren't, not anymore than a diet pill that will give you a temporary solution but won't keep the weight off. A shaman can help you heal and get you on the path to healing, give you temporary relief, but the intent and willpower for lasting change to has to come from you. Anyone who tells you otherwise and charges you a lot of money for it shouldn't be doing that. Please give recap a try. It really works. You don
  9. Hi Richard, Thank you for your question in a sense it is quite fundamental, as its core a balanced shamanic tradition is concerned with healing, the healing of the self and then the healing of the world. It’s a bit like eating food, we have to first find the food that works for our constitution so we can heal from the inside out but then only when we have done that can we truly experience the joy of eating because we have freed ourselves of attachments to food that were toxic to us in the first place, so that food falls away and you become someone different more in line with who you reall
  11. Hi Wildflower, You've already got excellent advice here but advice is just that, unless we really have to roll up our sleeve and work. The problem sometimes is how we start and take them all in & apply them that can change our situation. You have a very fascinating story btw, a movie material but unfortunately we don't do healing like what movies portray or what Keanu Reeves did in the Constantine movie. I myself came here seeking for healing/truth and for most of us still a continuing journey, relentless search and unceasing unfolding of the path we are called for. Your story, my s
  12. Hi, I have posted a few posts on this forum and I appreciate so much everyones help and responses. I am having a hard time on my own reclaiming energy I would like to retrieve. I think this is due to extreme series of traumas both sexual, emotion and physical as well as NDES and I often feel other people in my energy field as well. I have a hard time concentrating and staying focused on exercises I am reading about on the internet. I recently came back from a complete nervous and physical breakdown. I have been reading about soul fragmentation as well as soul retrieval.
  13. Thanks for saying that. I appreciate there being a space somewhere for that. It can be so isolating in a world where you have experiences like these happen and the only option in the world of the normality of even the madness of the world your experiences sound like insanity. It drove me into a hospital after going through a crisis and not knowing where to turn. In my states of breakdown I humiliated myself socially with stories of experiencing other realities other than living in a world that was more tribal with medicine men and women to possibly guide me and help. My li
  14. : ) we are people you can talk about supernatural with
  15. Hi Bluerat, We don't do soul retrieval healings per se, we have a different way of working with that type of healing. However, I think you might benefit from doing some grounding work on yourself. The easiest way to do this is to literally connect with the earth, sit on the ground beneath a tree or somewhere. If that isn't an option and you have access to rocks outside, find some that feel agreeable with you and bring them home, sit with them, ask them to help ground you. You can also try eating some root vegetables - carrots, potatoes, etc. as they can have a grounding effect. I wo
  16. I am a new student to shamanism and I love it. About a month ago, I had my first soul retrieval with an experienced healer. It was a powerful experience for me and I felt great the day I wrapped it up. However, since then, my moods have been very up and down and I’ve had a lot of memories from the past coming up and stirring me. I feel very out of sorts and depressed a lot these days. I was expecting to feel better and not worse! Is it normal for things to be a bit out of sorts before they improve? If so, how long does it take?
  17. Of course, you are welcome to post here. Many of us have been in similar situations as you, by that I mean feeling like others have taken our energy from us. And we've all been in a place before where we've had to rescue our self from ourselves.
  18. I apologize for the long winded rants. I could write my story for days to tell you the truth. I am just tired and it was too supernatural to relate to many and then the war left me feeling that lost and wondering even if I was gone forever... yet I am still here. Anyways thank you all for your replies and care!
  19. Well I should say that "was" vision of life.. now I am more tired and just I am happy if I make it through the day. But I appreciate your reply and it really helped me feel like hope was there and possibly I was a really beautiful strong independent woman that lived on the road. I was a bit of of wounded warrior and kept to myself in certain ways but I loved nature, freedom, and travel. I lived on the road as I said for many years and since then have been somewhat forced away from that path.. Now is a time of resting. I do hope you are right! What a relief it would be to find out I
  20. Yes well, religion can be a wonderful experience/entity to be part of but it can also be used to manipulate people to giving up their power, so you still need to understand your own energy to know when someone, even if the religion itself is good and helps people, if there are those within it misusing it, then it can do a lot of damage to people. Why not give it a try? Take your energy back, demand they leave you alone and see how you feel down the road a bit from now. If they are truly a loving, giving religion, they will understand and support you.
  21. Thanks you. This actually was very consoling and helpful feedback. I could not understand why certain beings were trying to convince me I had been destroyed forever possibly then later telling me that was untrue and the endless looping. Possibly to take away my own feeling of power or worth and it did this to me. I later learned through the communication the beings would change stories saying it was possible for me to still be in a heaven and have a life after life when at other times they tried to make me think I was destroyed.. while at the same time blocking certain natural guides or
  22. You absolutely do have your own soul (core) still, that cannot be taken - ever. Others can try to convince you otherwise in order to manipulate you but they do not have that power, no one does. You can demand to take it back, all the energy that you have given them. It's hard to acknowledge sometimes that we have turned over our own energy to others in an agreement of sorts, even though it can feel like they've taken it from us against our will. At some point, we 'agree,' it could be that we convince ourselves we are not worthy or many other scenarios. But the truth is, we all have our own '
  23. These patriarchal beings that got involved became very manipulative at times and it scared me because it was not my belief system. Even looping me around in circles with guidance and then false truths possibly so I did not trust my own anymore and became very weak. I was told it was a patriarchal war that was happening in the spirit world and certain patriarchs desired to not lose their subservients . I was taken from a beautiful path once where I was given a native type medicine name in a near death experience to being caught in a war with religious ideas that frightened
  24. Silence seeker this what was most difficult for me. I knew my energy very clearly and after the experiences and so many trying to not only bombard my energy field I could not feel myself the same. What they also did during this time was take someone elses energy and told me they are using it a space holder basically and I could only feel her energy around me as if I had been replaced and it was not feeling like a natural space holder as I had felt before. She was used to my understanding to repel others that came in my iniation because she was not a soul mate to them- which this was not f
  25. That's the key, if you know yourself and your energy, no one can use it or take advantage of you unless you willingly agree.
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