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  1. I know a lot of people who're into it and stand by it. I understand the fascination, but I'd rather focus on healing what I need to before my intent leads me to look further back- which it seldom has. Plus past life regression requires dependence on the mind- following this tradition, I intend to take my power back from my mind so that it could become a 'secondary' tool.
  2. I know that feeling. So we lose observation mode in meditating but we have to just brush it off or laugh at it when it happens. Loss of focus- so what? It happens. Next breath. In the long run, if you continue re-visiting the intent persistently, you're still moving toward it- perhaps not how you want to or think you should, but still. Enjoy the ride : ) Take your time adapting to the changes...keep recapping. Things unfold in ways we don't really expect.
  3. Stacey in- Wanderer, i get hung up on feeling unable to interpret dreams, too. What helps me might also give you direction- feel for the energy moving behind the images to counteract your focus on interpretation- which is just re-arranging parts of the images. Let us know how this works for you. S
  4. if it's waking up spiritually you're interested, i recommend trying other outlets than drugs- work with your own power. what we have to remember about plants is we're not smarter than them, and they're not working for us. the times i had used salvia didn't really seem to do much for me. what i remember was it giving me that paranoid crack quaking feeling coupled with mild disappointment. what opened the door for me on my path was my experiences with meditation. to this day it continues to feel 'counterintuitive', but i do it just about everyday anyway. it's been a gentle friend that prompted m
  5. Lorrie, Is there a general estimation how long the chat will run for? I might not be able to make it 'til 930 945
  6. :O this is very exciting!
  7. i finally got to read your post. self heal tom- be your *own* healer. : ) but start slow and take your time with it. please don't go straight to trauma again, don't go anywhere heavy yet as to avoid agitating wounds. you are a lot like me in your desperation to heal (if you don't mind me saying), so please understand this isn't coming from a place of judging. i started recapping all the current relationships and happy memories like a month in not realizing that was gonna make my home life even harder. but i was just so desperate to 'get over' all of it and detach from family so that it would s
  8. hey tom, i'm so happy you reached out here. recapping is great and i'm happy you went for it. and pleased honestly at your receptivity. and a little blown away by the strength of your intent. : o i do recommend recapping, but wait until you get replies from the shamans first and take the class i told you about if you're able to. in the meantime: sit outside on the ground or stand barefeet out there. hug a tree : ) read the article on grounding i e-mailed you. you might not notice anything right away- for me, i didn't because of my expectations. sometime within the past two weeks i reflect
  9. whoa, i had a really hard time reading that list. Karl, thank you for your insights as usual : ) we put our energy in different places on a collective level these days then i imagine we once did. I think the way the 'call' might show up in 'western' cultures is this feeling unable to be superficial, and feeling unable to not see through things- this being complementary to how we're taught to spread our energy out thin, here in the states anyway. idk how it is elsewhere but i imagine that it varies culturally. Jonothon, I just wanted to tell you to open your heart to clarity
  10. sorry jonothon, i didn't mean to come across as judging. my statement wasn't specific to you. paying respects to those who've been persecuted and recognizing personal privileges are points i like to put out there for people expressing interest. i'm one of those. what exactly are your apprehensions- what do you expect would happen if you 'journeyed'? if you're talking about what's referred to as 'harner style' journeying, it's a practice whose roots are in the shamanic, but not something only shamans do. perhaps my colleagues and teachers here could elaborate one what the effects of
  11. Jonothon, there's nothing to 'solve'. intend to see your path with clarity. keep your mind out of it. also: ask yourself why you want to be a shaman, and answer yourself honestly with that one. my introduction to the shamanic was one into which i was swayed by romanticism. it gave me a lot of escapism and it's been important to stay aware of that. i'm also grateful for what becoming conscious of romanticizing the shamanic has done for me. it helped me to be aware of certain privileges i have that those who've walked the path before me or in other parts of the world have not. i think that
  12. BL94, I'm echoing points that were made here for reiteration. To go out in nature helps me tremendously- to the sea, to the woods, anywhere in which bonding with the elements is called for. If I'm unable to make it, at least stuffing my pockets with herbs and rocks, taking my shoes off out there helps me calm down, grounds me. It keeps me in touch with my journey of finding out who I am...and maybe that's what's calling to you, too. What's been most helpful was figuring out what my values are, and little steps I could take to act in alignment with them. In effect, this brings people with
  13. Hi Karl, Just wantedto let you know as I said I would that recapping went great yesterday and I've been feeling really well since approaching my intent without yielding. I had a bit of a fright about an hour ago with sudden self doubt which led to depression and have been resting, but I'm about to recap and intend to recover whatever the "attack" was drawing to my attention. S.
  14. Yes!- I thought my feeling rather mentally ill recently had to do with my mind fighting hard against my changing. When I finish my recapping since I started it, I see the same angry face being all threatening. Early on in the process I understood this to be a configuration of my own energy. I figure it's old, as it looks just like Hexxus from Fern Gully-my fav movie as a small child. I'd like to add though that the first time I went to read the bones of the dead this past Monday, I felt so in my power afterward that I saw the face vividly and just cut it down the middle. I'm glad to hear
  15. Karl, Honestly your comment saved me from further spiraling downward today. The recap has been trying recently because I feel more distracted by the intrusive thoughts than usual, feeling really disconnected, and my expectations of myself are pretty high, which is expressive of that wall. I think it's all coming forward like this because I'm ready, not that I FEEL the least bit capable of handling it all. But I'm gonna try to keep the gentle energy of your comment in mind...sometimes I think if I could figure out how to be gentle to myself, that whole wall would just untangle seamlessly.
  16. Hi, I'm looking for Maker advice on dealing with life outside of the Shamanic. I notice whenever I'm in my awareness/intent exploring around I am fine. Totally fine, mesmerized, very understanding and respecting of my personal power and starting to accept it. I needed a lot of rest today and allowed that so I dove into the sea a bunch to rest and recover, learning everything I need to know. with my *energy* that is. Everything makes sense, and I can tell my self doubt is either weakening or I'm just not in my head when I'm there. When I get out of it however I'm sucked right back into the
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