Missaries555

hi i have been gambling for 13 vyears on and off. It started when i had a trauma it would stop when i was around loving relationships and restart when i was bored or single again my trauma which manifested physicxally went away after 7 years i was on an antidepressants then and also was taking flower essences i left to live in a different state in australia i had no urges to gamble. i know my trauma comes from father relationship but also sexual abuse when i returnrd back to my state i started again the gambling but not straight away i want to be honest i like playing the slot machines but no matter what i win or lose i play ive never know what i want from life. im 36 now i got ptsd a 4 years ago from a relationship and ear sound disorder and i cant do my singing i have $40 to my name and am going back to emergency acomodation soon my father is abusive mentally and emotionally