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  3. i finally got to read your post. self heal tom- be your *own* healer. : ) but start slow and take your time with it. please don't go straight to trauma again, don't go anywhere heavy yet as to avoid agitating wounds. you are a lot like me in your desperation to heal (if you don't mind me saying), so please understand this isn't coming from a place of judging. i started recapping all the current relationships and happy memories like a month in not realizing that was gonna make my home life even harder. but i was just so desperate to 'get over' all of it and detach from family so that it would stop hurting. and it hasn't ; ) so it's important to not let the desperation get in the way- let your intent guide *you* and you will get there. also did you read the grounding stuffs i sent you. grab some rocks and stuff. put your hands in the dirt. remind yourself that the narrative will end. it will take time and hard work, but keep intending and it will get better
  4. I'm kind of realizing over the past few days that i might need to practice stalking a lot since my issues are so complicated... but what do i stalk? healing? is that too general? I could also stalk the source of the darkness but i think that could kind of end up in a bad way. like... searching for a needle in a hay stack and being surprised when you prick your finger. i used to practice stalking a while back, several years ago... and it's like i picked up where i left off. if necessary i can explain how i've been stalking but i will keep this one brief because the last post was a tome.
  5. I will begin by explaining my primary struggle: Sometimes (about once a week on average) I am overwhelmed by a solipsistic waking nightmare in which i am the only conscious entity and all the suffering in the world is my fault. It happens mostly in public places but sometimes it strikes at home. When i am hit with it I feel evil and pathetic. In it I am being given a choice. Accept the "knowing" that I am evil and punish myself or opt out of remembering my own lowliness and inherit a greater punishment. The idea behind it is that by sustaining my existence i am sustaining the horrors of this world. As an American i am dependent upon fossil fuels and plastic packaging and hegemony and cheap foreign wage slavery and what not. By destroying myself i would magically destroy these things. A lot of times there's white male guilt involved. Every time it happens it feels like the very end of the line. Yet It seems to one up itself every time. The sense of "knowing" i am evil is beyond disconcerting. This has been going on for arguably three or four years but i also had a similar theme about 8 or 10 years earlier in my life. In the earlier stages i was completely susceptible to it. I wasn't on anti-psychotics like i am now. I call it the condemnation narrative, though i used to call it "the shroud of pain". One time, In the earliest stages i was being told by some kind of entity to spin around in circles until my reality became hell itself. I'll never forget the one time when gripped by terror i started spinning clockwise and an entity of some kind ordered me to spin in the opposite direction. It was just like... NO. THE OTHER WAY. It was very important for some reason to do it widdershins (counter clockwise). I was so unaware of my surroundings that I literally fell through my father's glass coffee table putting a deep gash in my palm. I was bleeding everywhere. There's so much to tell about my journey... it's impossible to encapsulate it. But i will try to highlight some important moments. It probably started with a love triangle of sorts and FOOLISH power seeking. I was dating a woman and a male shaman she met introduced her to a ritual in my absence. She showed me the ritual one day. In it we both took off our shirts, sat cross legged before one another. Placed sage smudge ash on our foreheads and heart center, placed the flat of our right palm over each others hearts and stared into one another's eyes. We were to do this until we saw each other's face shift and blur and become that of our primary animal spirit totem. When i got home i did a version of the ritual in a mirror with myself. I began it by challenging the male shaman (stupid, ego driven, foolish). I saw the reflection of my face change into that of an angry wolf (the shaman's primary totem) looking back at me. My face in the mirror also changed into the woman i was dating and i watched as she got ripped away from me into another dimension. It also changed into a red faced demon who said "it's going to be hell for you". It felt like all the life energy had been sucked out of me after i was done and I passed out and woke up the next afternoon to literally 30 or more missed calls from the woman i was dating. She was going to visit her home country Azerbaijan for a lengthy time and was trying to reach me to change her mind. By the time I reached her it was too late. She had indeed been ripped away from me as i saw in the vision. I neglected to mention that After the ritual i felt like i was being followed by Something that did not have good intent. i also felt like i had a fox's ears and heightened sense of hearing. but the sensation of being followed by a specter was very real. I had other symptoms. i felt totally off. I got so bogged down by negative energies that eventually this all led me to go cross country to New Mexico via greyhound in search of a shaman. I had no plan or anything. I was just hoping it would fall into place by the grace of the universe. Which it kind of did... but definitely not like i'd imagined. On the way to new mexico i randomly got off the bus in a small town named Easton, Pennsylvania to return to my home in new york. but when i called my father he told me i couldn't come back. that if i really wanted to be a vagabond to try it out for "i don't know... a week or maybe a month". Anyway... i ended up running into a shaman woman one night in that small town. I saw her walking into a bar. I'm regularly quite shy about pursuing women... but this woman was glowing with white light and her aura was like... 20 feet tall like she was being followed by archangels. I NEEDED to talk to her. This woman became very important to my life. She introduced me to the moon blood mysteries and the goddess and eco feminism and shamanism in general. I also met a few brujos in New mexico when i finally got there about a month later. I'm not sure what they did to me, but at least one had targeted me. I have to leave a lot of details out unfortunately. there's just too much to cover. I also met an indigenous man there who told me "You're a spiritual warrior. You'll see the sky fill with demons. And you'll beat them but don't fight them." He said this to me about 50 times while we were holding eachother's wrists with our hands. He seemed like he really wanted to drill it into my mind and soul. But in california i hooked up with a shaman woman i found on the internet and she was excellent. She introduced me to a more benevolent power than what i was caught up in. It brought me to tears. I saw ganesha in a vision and i/she/we unblocked my svadisthana chakra and a river flowed up my spine. it was so beautiful. Words cannot describe the vividness of these healing visions. Also i had a few bad acid trips while i was in cali. i saw a demonic extra terrestial type woman with a crown of flowers and interlocking fangs take up the entire sky and she hated me SO much, just staring me down with pure hatred and finally i said to her “if you hate me such much then destroy me”. my whole body was shaking and she disappeared and a wolf's head flew into my heart chakra I have no idea how to interpret it. Was the wolf totem my reward? Was it my enemy? I don't know...... i even saw her the next day while sober. a man i was talking to in San Francisco was carrying A LOT of dark tension on one side of his body and i saw her head circling his feet. I told him " i feel like you have an angel on your right shoulder". He pulled back his shirt to reveal a tattoo of his late daughter with angel wings. The demonic woman's face disappeared. I met another powerful (very powerful) shaman while volunteering at Alex Grey's cosm. He didn't charge me for anything he did with me. Most notably he was holding my hand to "feel my nervous system" and his face was changing into ugly demons. Without me saying that i was seeing his face morph he told me "Whenever you see those i want you to say 'Those motherfuckers'. I asked him what they were and he replied "They're NOTHING." At one point in the healing, the culmination of it i suppose, he placed the flat of his palm on my heart and rubbed it vigorously and i broke out into hysterical laughter as though i had just been told the funniest joke ever, though I had no conscious knowledge of what I was laughing at. He also called me a "Bad ass angel warrior of light". Once again i have to leave a lot. I ended up meeting up with the woman from Pennsylvania again several years later and i set an intention to understand the blood moon mysteries of which she often spoke and it just totally blew me away. I wasn't expecting it to be so powerful. I saw it as peripheral but it turned out to be very central to my experience of her wisdom. At one point she told me i needed mothering and she let me lay my head in her lap. As soon as i said to myself "i wish i could lay here forever" she stood up and said... "you need a stick" she went outside and came back in with a stick and it was literally glowing with intense white light. She handed it to me and said "this is your inner rod of light. No one can give this to but yourself........... you're welcome." Another time i was staring at the word prayer in the gideons new testament and the text changed into an alien language, i was hearing people's prayers flood my mind and music so complex and layered and emotive that it could only be god's music and the entire room was shimmering with what i believe to have been the holy spirit. Words cannot describe. So yeah... super complex path I've walked. I've only scratched the surface. A lot of dark. a lot of light. a lot of vicious entanglements. But my main concern now is how to be able to function in the world without being overtaken by the "condemnation narrative"…. When it hits it just feels so awful. To say it again... it feels like i am the only conscious entity. All of my friends and family are illusions. No one loves me. God hates me. i'm killiing the world and i have to destroy myself. the world is beyond saving. this happens mostly when i am out in public. i'm very sensitive to things like car traffic and anything that is killing the earth. I generally react to it by shutting down stimuli. I'll lay down in my bed and just wait for it to pass. Sometimes i'll remind myself of good things i've done like donating to sick children and all sorts of causes and i'll remind myself about some of the light filled moments i mentioned earlier. The affirmations i've been given that I am on a light oriented path. But there's just so many ways i can relate to this condemnation narrative. I don't know how to approach it. I’ve been facing off with it for years but I don’t know how to approach it. I don't know how to heal.......... I really don't.
  6. Karl

    First Time Recapitulation (Recapping Trauma)

    I would recommend simply recapping your day, every day, starting out. As you do this, you will start to feel like things connect backwards into your past. Then recap those things, but avoid active relationships or history with your children, and also traumatic events. If something seems like it's "too big" to recap, then just skip it for now. Once you've acquired some experience and time with recap, you can start to work around the edges of those things which are more difficult. There's not a rush to do so. You'll feel like there's a good time to start working on it. This is also what we do in the classes, to start with. -karl
  7. peastacey

    First Time Recapitulation (Recapping Trauma)

    hey tom, i'm so happy you reached out here. recapping is great and i'm happy you went for it. and pleased honestly at your receptivity. and a little blown away by the strength of your intent. : o i do recommend recapping, but wait until you get replies from the shamans first and take the class i told you about if you're able to. in the meantime: sit outside on the ground or stand barefeet out there. hug a tree : ) read the article on grounding i e-mailed you. you might not notice anything right away- for me, i didn't because of my expectations. sometime within the past two weeks i reflected on it, seeing that grounding does in fact 'work' on me.
  8. Hi, a friend introduced me to the recapitulation exercise article on shamans cave. I overlooked the part in her email wherein she told me not to jump into the practice without talking to her about it first. I set a timer for 15 minutes and delved straight into recalling traumatic memories related to my father and my upbringing. After the first session i did an immediate follow up about my mother for about 5 minutes. I rarely if ever give much stock to how she made mistakes. I felt slightly overwhelmed after. I told my friend i had done this and she told me in so many words that it was a mistake to delve into deep traumas right off the get go. She urged me to reach out on the forum and to place emphasis on what i recapped and how i am feeling. I recapped complex physical, sexual, and emotional abuse. I am not feeling any particular long lasting repercussions. I am at a baseline level mentally and emotionally. She said i should focus on grounding and not start recapitulation. What advice would you have for me?
  9. Karl

    Need help to Work with Shadows

    Moving that far as kind of more of an advanced practice, a deeper plunge. If you want to start working with shadows, I would suggest using them to, at first, to simply let your awareness shift a bit. It's kind of a relaxing feeling, where suddenly "new stuff" leaks in, like things shift or fill in. I don't think most could touch on the shadow world without a good amount of practice, simply because it's a bit further away than the nearby movements of awareness.
  10. Hi, This is my 1st post in this forum, i have been following this site for sometimes and trying to do some self practice also. Yesterday i tried to see the shadow world as mentioned in this link (https://www.shamanscave.com/practices/working-with-shadows). I have tried it into my room at night. I have created shadow and tried to make intention to see the shadow world. after 2 hours (around) of practice i didn't feel any presence or not even can't see any thing. its not like i don't believe in shadow world or in the process. Now i'm seeking your suggestions. Please help to advise me if i did something wrong or if there anything i must do to work with shadow world. any kind of suggestion is very much appreciable. thank you
  11. MarthaWoodbury

    healing the shamanistic way

    Hey, that is really great information.
  12. silenceseeker

    Spirit Animals

    Sorry, no, we don’t work with spirit animals nor guides in the context they’ve become to be known in recent times. We tend to work with energy in a more direct manner. Lorrie
  13. phatty boomba

    Spirit Animals

    Hey guys, I am captivated with Spirit Animals and have become professional at assisting people find there own. I just discovered one of my spirit guides, a snake has two heads, I have searched the internet far and wide to find little information on this and can not find much. I am after some detailed information about what this means, so I can better understand myself. Also, on spirit Animals, is there any information you guys have for me on this topic? Any interesting facts to share?
  14. peastacey

    How to discover if I'm a shaman?

    whoa, i had a really hard time reading that list. Karl, thank you for your insights as usual : ) we put our energy in different places on a collective level these days then i imagine we once did. I think the way the 'call' might show up in 'western' cultures is this feeling unable to be superficial, and feeling unable to not see through things- this being complementary to how we're taught to spread our energy out thin, here in the states anyway. idk how it is elsewhere but i imagine that it varies culturally. Jonothon, I just wanted to tell you to open your heart to clarity again. You have a heart, and that's ultimately where your strength is. It's not gonna go away tomorrow. So take pressure off yourself. These're big visions you have for yourself and you might want to get there one day but you have to build up to it. Look for the 'grey' area of things- hypothetically, if you found yourself embracing a shamanic path today, you wouldn't be able to shout from a soap-box: "i'm a shaman!" tomorrow. i have been self-healing for several months and i am no where near that entitlement. No matter what, though, it's never about the identity. It really helps to let go of it- ultimately who we believe we are is irrelevant. Be good.
  15. Karl

    How to discover if I'm a shaman?

    Hi Jonothon, Certainly, the traditional view was that you would be called to it or born into a family tradition. Sometimes those callings could be dramatic, but they can just be something that you "need" to pursue, no matter what. If you feel in your heart that this is something you need to look into, then you should. You reach a point where it becomes about being true to yourself or not. I have seen people fight that need or calling, and it can be really tough to try and walk away from it if it's a deeply rooted thing. In this modern age, I think it can manifest itself in a more subtle fashion. Our energy sometimes takes note of a bigger picture. Some people's energy, upon realizing there's a bigger "thing" out there, can't really let it go. It's like suddenly knowing there's a second room in a house where it always thought there was only one room. Then notice there's a third room.. a fourth - even another house! A lot of people out there, their selves just shrugs their shoulders and moves on, but in some people there's a seed planted that won't go away. I don't know if shamanism is the path for people like that, but, to me, that is what shamanism is about exploring: the unknown side of reality. The only people I would tell that they should do shamanism are the ones where you can see that walking away from it would cause them harm. There are people like that, though not many. For almost everybody else, it's a personal decision you come to, maybe over many years, or maybe over a few days. I spent a lot of time looking for the path that "fit" me, but I found it - it happened to be shamanism, and specifically, a contemporary path. It's been the only thing i ever found that "fit" me. -karl
  16. Alex

    How to discover if I'm a shaman?

    I'll just drop this here since you are creating some nasty intents for yourself that you'll have to spend a lot of energy to fix up later. It's a post by Gary/Niteshad the one who brought the maker tradition online. Pay close attention to the title. HOW NOT TO BE A SHAMAN 1.) Take miserable care of your body, your relationships, your finances and everything in your life. Avoid anything that would make you happy - shamans have to suffer. 2.) Understand that you can only possibly practice when your mind is relaxed and untroubled by other concerns. So if there's anything else at all you 'should' be doing, do it instead. For greatest efficiency, just thrash around and worry about what you should be doing instead of actually doing anything - that way you can endlessly reuse the same things. 3.) You know it's impossible to make a living as a shaman or healer, so have a day job you hate that leaves you mentally, physically and emotionally exhausted. After work, you'll be in no shape to practice, so have some ice cream and watch TV. You deserve it. 4.) Invent endless constraints regarding under what circumstances you could get shamanic work done. You need a special sacred space, a special set of objects, absolute quiet, a certain kind of music. Spend more time complaining about the lack of these circumstances than actually working. 5.) You'll be able to get plenty of shamanic work done when you're independently wealthy and have lots of free time. Just wait till then. 6.) There are thousands of books on shamanism. Better read them all before you start, one of them must have the secret. (Be sure to skip all the exercises.) 7.) Let's face it, you don't know enough to be a shaman. You've never even read [insert famous literary work here]. Better get to it, or no one will take you seriously. 8.) Surround yourself with people who are jealous of your time, disrespect your practices and beliefs and undermine you at every turn. If possible, marry one and have kids. 9.) If you fail at all of the above, and actually do manage to practice, make sure each movement, each act, is perfect before you move on - compare it to your favorite shamanic writer's published works (you don't think people with talent have to practice, do you?) and attack it with all the viciousness of your cruelest and most bitter high school teachers. 10.) Give up as soon as it seems hard or you feel uninspired. After all, if it were really possible, it would flow smoothly and be easy. 11.) Whatever you do, don't actually finish anything. Just keep starting new practices. (Any work prior to your latest sucks anyway.) Or endlessly torture your existing practices until you drain them of any vitality they might once have had. 12.) If you do accomplish something, immediately share it with someone who can be counted on to tear it apart, tell you you're wasting your time, and imply you're an idiot for ever imagining you could be a shaman. Believe this person - s/he wouldn't say it if it weren't true. 13.) Be sure you never actually work out in the world with other people. Take the decision of whether what you do works out of their hands: reject it for them. 14.) If an intent or practice seems to fail, don't ever try it again - obviously it was no good. In all likelihood, you aren't either: be sure not to pass up the opportunity to consider giving it all up. 15.) If, in an extreme case of failing at the above, you've actually done something, know that it was just a fluke. Never ever believe in yourself. Repeat as necessary.
  17. Jonothon

    How to discover if I'm a shaman?

    Don't worry, I know you wern't passing judgement. My view of a shaman is that it is a powerful responsibility to adhere for the living and the dead; by helping all life on earth as well as in the other planes of existance. I feel a strong sense of duty to help heal people and to keep the world in balance by using the abilities I have. At the same time it's not just a religion or a world view as it would become my life. It could not be something to just do on the weekends or in my spare time or when spiritual holidays come and go, it's 24/7 awake and dreaming with no rest. There's also the social side of things, well, not so much social as I've always felt set apart from everyone in my life; but to take this path would almost obliterate any chance of an average social, family and work life. I don't mean to make this sound negative in general as I know the positives are much more powerful than the negatives - maybe I'm just holding onto the material world and by doing that it's torturing me? I don't know. Without going into too much detail, I believe I did unknowingly journey a few times as a child in my dreams; but due to my background it was blocked out and put to the deepest parts of my mind as the material world took other. This would explain my research into different spiritual paths from a teenager to present because, from every spiritual path I managed to take something from it that was shamanic in nature. For instance I take my ethics from Buddhism, my skills from spiritualism (in terms of working on a psychic level.) In Paganism I took Yggdrassil from Norse Mythology, akin to the world tree in shamanic cosmology and learning how energy works through practicing witchcraft. But I do feel that if I journey, the mediumistic abilities I had as a child will be reinstated into my adult self and could be very intense to deal with by opening this world up again, that's if I was correct about journying as a child. Everyone has free will, one could choose to be Christian then change their view through Hinduism, or Buddhism or Paganism; but I don't believe this is something I could just stop or turn my back on if I journeyed now.
  18. peastacey

    How to discover if I'm a shaman?

    sorry jonothon, i didn't mean to come across as judging. my statement wasn't specific to you. paying respects to those who've been persecuted and recognizing personal privileges are points i like to put out there for people expressing interest. i'm one of those. what exactly are your apprehensions- what do you expect would happen if you 'journeyed'? if you're talking about what's referred to as 'harner style' journeying, it's a practice whose roots are in the shamanic, but not something only shamans do. perhaps my colleagues and teachers here could elaborate one what the effects of journeying are, how safe it is or isn't. s.
  19. Jonothon

    How to discover if I'm a shaman?

    Thanks for your reply Peastacey, In honesty I would not prefer to live a shamanic life; so I can guarantee there's no romanticism involved here; but my spirituality constantly pushes me into this direction. I could easily turn a blind eye to this path and try to do something else which is what I have done. However I'm always pushed back towards Shamanism. In the past I've always been known to work on a psychic level. There are instances where spirit have been involved; but this is a handful of times. I've tried asking my spirit/animal guides about this issue and they only ever say: "Do a journey and find out!" but I'm very apprehensive about just doing a journey.
  20. peastacey

    How to discover if I'm a shaman?

    Jonothon, there's nothing to 'solve'. intend to see your path with clarity. keep your mind out of it. also: ask yourself why you want to be a shaman, and answer yourself honestly with that one. my introduction to the shamanic was one into which i was swayed by romanticism. it gave me a lot of escapism and it's been important to stay aware of that. i'm also grateful for what becoming conscious of romanticizing the shamanic has done for me. it helped me to be aware of certain privileges i have that those who've walked the path before me or in other parts of the world have not. i think that kind of realism is important to appreciate once you begin stepping inside. S.
  21. Hi, For about 3 years I have had strong suspicions (but kept putting them to the back of my head) that I have been called to Shamanic work. There's too much info for me to delve into on here on how my suspicions have built; but I have always had a strong spiritual streak in myself (I was not brought up religiously or came from any form of religious background) and I have reserached and practiced extensively in Wicca/witchcraft/Paganism/Budhhism and Taoism, I did consider Judaism one; but I beleive this was more of a fascination with the language than with the actual religion. But when I came across Shamanism by accident, it had resonated with me in a way the others did not, like a strong bond. Although I feel this way I have never sought out to journey or to contact spirits as growing up I've always held a custom that if the spirits need me, then they'll come to me. Through working with spirit/animal guides and working with psychic energy, I have no idea whether I could have been communing with spirits or not; as I've never really had a teacher or elder in my life to guide me through these things. I had once attended open circles at spiritualist church where we went through a group meditation process to recieve messages to spirit. They described the spiritual energy to be flowing and psychic energy to be limited; but in regards to shamanism I would be at a loss. I have had strong urges to just pick up a drum and bang it to see what happens but I'm also aware of how dangerous that is considering I'm not well practiced! I would love nothing more for someone to tell me in person whether I am a sham or not; but here in Plymouth, U.K it's difficult to find the correct type of advisor. I'm also aware that there is a branch of shamanism that does not involve itself with being called or chosen or having a family lineage in order to be a practising shaman; but I respectfully do not feel that this is correct for me personally; which is why I need to try and find the confirmation but I'm unsure how. Can anyone suggest on what I can do to solve this? I'm at the point where I don't know what to believe anymore or even how to take myself seriously. Many thanks for any help given!
  22. So what to think of the Modern day Shaman ? With both feet in heaven and his ear low to the ground. Scooping up, filling lungs, breathing in the unfinished stories hiding in nooks and crannies and cracks of time. Breathing out in trilling air with new sound -not heard before, but composed of eons and sacred ions finding their way down Jacobs ladder. Through suspended air, in rhythm with ancient wind carrying it across the world to those curious and brave seekers of the unheard, so deeply felt within. He has recipies handed down by mother Nature-Shaman proven to rebalance soul sickness and leaking life issues, when wholeness is with holes. Connecting heart back to original place, tuning in the senses to delight and even lighter ! And with a magic touch tickles up joy bubbles, back to life. In tune, instrumental to ITS tune. They see through layers of sedimented pain, heavily wearing down the crust of earth, the hot tears melting ice caps. They see through with their piercing eyes that can't get blind as they are full with mercy. Not theirs, but to merciness itself that only longs to have its way, in praying plays, to shine with wondrous healing rays. Does such a person then exists, the modern shaman ? Only for those who can dream them, Who do not shrink back from strange phenomena, without paraphernalia, for he needs empty be, from matters free. Who shapes himself by shifting needs. As water, changing and adapting according to its current lead. With feelings only to guide him through, in and out and up to its evaporating stage of highness. For those who can travel without the body of the flesh and in total selflessness. Who recognize the signposts and parts of a godly plan trying to form up, perhaps giving himself a role in this play. In a respondant, responsable, surrendering way. Is the new Sha(wo)man born yet ? (S)he exists in all of us, if we choose to be, that hasn't changed. Made of historic bits, an ancestor heritage but stopped by lack of tribal grids. Emerging now from womb of echoing waves of core, electro-magnetic reaching this cave, this hollow reserved for a new model to raise. In incubation, discovering its technology, with updated biology, learning it's new songs. Discovering a new balance, aiming for the Oneness to meet the new challenge. For those who see that their genius comes from genuineness and not from puffed up elitism. Coming to understand that all have a part to play -all life, the fauna, flora- all have their say. They connect the bits, first in themselves, that went astray so that the scales get rebalanced for a future day. Written on Halloween night, when the veil is not so tight.
  23. MarthaWoodbury

    Lonely

    Hey, I would say that you should move outside to find new people make new friends and talk with them, this will help you a lot.
  24. MoonFox

    Triangles in Journying

    Hi all when walking with my guide she takes me to a cave and shows me triangle symbols the typical Air Water and Earth ones but doesn't explain what I am to make of these symbols. Can anyone give an explanation to what I'm looking for in these Thanks
  25. Alex

    Weird experience..advice pls

    Sometimes when interacting with certain people they feel like they shift who they are. Their physical structure doesn't change but my perception of them does. Someone could describe to you what happened but it won't make sense unless you do energy work. Consider diving into some kind of energy work to be able to understand what's happening energetically rather than having someone explain something to you through the theatre of the mind. You can make your perception see anything you want it to, just like a crazy person sees things that aren't there. Won't really make sense unless you develop your familiarity with energy.
  26. Hi all, i had an unusual experience recently where I witnessed someone personally very close to me shapeshift physically in front of me. The people shown to me were of people I have known in this life and also a face I do not know. The person afterwards claimed to not be aware of this and insisted they were themselves. This happened after intense emotional discussions...an 'enlightening bliss' experience and then fearful experience. My companion was possibly channelling and we were able to sync each other's thoughts. Anyone able to shed light on what this was about or means? Im out of my depth! i feel like there were possible entities interfering with us..? thanks in advance for your insights.
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