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  3. Flowerfairy

    Cerebellum Chakra Damage

    In my opinion you have possibly had an energetic attack and your resistance may have been low and some entity may have taken advantage of this. I would highly recommend seeking the services of a working shaman with a credible history of succesful treatment of others with similar issues. I recommend a shaman who charges for their time as you are completing an energy exchange with them for their service and they are less likely to be amateur. They need to be able to help you to gain protection around you and tell you what to do to avoid further issues. I would do this for you but I am still learning and although qualified by a master shaman still have a lot to learn and my personal life at the moment doesn't put me in the right space for doing this sort of work. I can highly recommend www.youtubeshaman.com if you can't find a shaman yourself.
  4. Typically, they last 1-2 hours, depending on how many questions there are, and how long Niteshad can stay.
  5. peastacey

    Q&A Session February 6th, 2019 at 9:00 PM ET

    Lorrie, Is there a general estimation how long the chat will run for? I might not be able to make it 'til 930 945
  6. Please join us for an evening chat with Niteshad, the creator of ShamansCave. You can reach the chat here in the shamanscave chat channel: https://www.shamanscave.com/irc/irc.html We've set the chat for Wednesday February 6th at 9:00 PM ET. All questions regarding shamanism and/or ShamansCave or the maker tradition are welcome. All levels of knowledge are welcome, no question is too basic. The chat is intended for: *Anyone curious about shamanism and would like your questions answered *Practitioners of other shamanic traditions that would like to know more about the maker tradition *Current students of Shamanscave who have questions outside of classes We look forward to seeing you there, ShamansCave Admin.
  7. syttvan

    Cerebellum Chakra Damage

    Hello, a year ago I was in my bed listening to some music I did some sort of meditation and suddenly I felt a discomfort in my throat like that feeling you have to cough that moment I didn't cough and when the feeling escalated a bit I could hear a voice in my head saying:"Never mind it will happened to him as well" coming from a person I had a really bad dispute with. once the feeling in my throat sank I felt the lower back of my brain being damaged from what I call today "a Mental Snake Bite" the damage felt like the snake's teeth are biting on these parts until I felt both of the sides being lost from my brain completely It felt like my right side and left side brain are disappearing from me body like I lost all protection from god or perhaps being "banned from heaven" I should mention that symbolically I had at that time a piercing of snake bite on my lips After that event I can still remember going out to the balcony really nervous for smoking a cigarette while hearing crows yelling and I felt their vibration really vividly while experiencing the word "Lucifer" and hearing that same person I heard before screaming in my head like AHH!! Ever since that happened everything has turned black all my joy of life has disappeared and I can sense some evil spirit haunting me all the time at start he was nice but when time progresses the entity is becoming really grim. I'm just an ordinary 24 year old guy why the hell does this thing happened to me? is there anybody out there who has the answer or had similar experience? Thanks
  8. SirEddie

    Visions

    Had another vision this morning. It was quite different that the others. It started the same as in a bunch of symbols that were moving around and changing. Could make no sense of any of it. Then it cleared and a bright light appeared in the upper right corner of my vision field. When I tried to look directly at it, it would disappear. It would reappear when I looked away from it. Then a swirling mass of some sort(looked kinda like smoke appeared in front of me. The best way to describe it would be like a glass with a milky swirl that I could easily see through. On the other side of the "glass" faces started to appear. There were a lot of them. They would come in and look at me and then back off and others would come forward . This went on for about 3-4 minutes. The faces were very clear. They all looked young(15-16). I felt nothing threatening. There was no audio at all. When it faded, I tried to make it come back as I have done each time. This time I got it to come back briefly. I have an overwhelming feeling that I am being given something. I am also finding it lot easier to get into the "now" and stay there longer. And the feeling that comes with it is much stronger. Emotions are easier to detach from it seems. I am able to easily get out of stressful situations without reacting with my ego. I feel like things are moving very quickly for me right now. So much has changed in the last short while. I am also going through separation from many friends due to all of this.
  9. SirEddie

    Visions

    Thank you Mandy, that was very helpful I have recently made some crucial realizations about my reality. Thus I have considered this to be part of the process.
  10. Mandy

    Visions

    Hi there. Visions usually are that, like watching a tv screen that's a good way to describe them. We all 'see' uniquely, for example sometimes the things I see (and I don't mean with my physical eyes) takes on a cartoonish quality. I've also found that the cusp between asleep and awake can be an opening to see and experience beyond the normal human range. Sometimes our own energy, and events in our lives, will prod us in the direction of seeing and experiencing things outside the box of normal human experience. You wrote that you're beginning to wake up: when a person starts this process things can energetically begin to become more fluid too. Mandy
  11. SirEddie

    Visions

    I awake every night around 3-330am. I usually just lay there and try to fall back asleep. It is rare that I do fall back asleep and am generally up for around 2 hours before I can do so. So each time i was lying in my bed trying to fall asleep after waking up. On a regular night, I see vague patterns moving about which I have always seen. But on these particular nights, I would just see a white dot which would slowly expand until it covers my whole field of view. Then the visions start. They last only a few minutes. My persona situation is I am a single dad to twin girls with severe autism. They are very aggressive and it frequently gets far beyond what a normal person would call stress. I have also had some extreme suffering through out my life.
  12. Karl

    Visions

    What was the situation where you were experiencing this?
  13. SirEddie

    Visions

    I have no idea what any of it means. Only that I have started my journey of awakening about six months before this started.
  14. peastacey

    Visions

    :O this is very exciting!
  15. SirEddie

    Visions

    I am 53 and have never had any type of visions until recently. The first one was a couple of months ago. It was a pyramid with water flowing under it. The next one came a bout two weeks later. It was just a bunch of squiggly lines moving all over the place. The to my left, a very large eye opened out of nowhere. It looked around at the lines and then at me. It then closed as suddenly as it opened. Since then I have had several of the same one. It is a bunch of weird writing like hieroglyphics that are wiggling and changing. All of the visions are the same in the sense that they all look like they have been drawn crudely like by a child. And they all start the same. They all have happened in the middle of the night when I have woken up. It starts with a small white dot in the middle of my vision field. Then the white dot starts to grow until it covers my whole field of vision. Then the visions start. They are very clear. Except that it almost seems like I am watching an old TV screen, like how it kind of flickers sometimes.
  16. i finally got to read your post. self heal tom- be your *own* healer. : ) but start slow and take your time with it. please don't go straight to trauma again, don't go anywhere heavy yet as to avoid agitating wounds. you are a lot like me in your desperation to heal (if you don't mind me saying), so please understand this isn't coming from a place of judging. i started recapping all the current relationships and happy memories like a month in not realizing that was gonna make my home life even harder. but i was just so desperate to 'get over' all of it and detach from family so that it would stop hurting. and it hasn't ; ) so it's important to not let the desperation get in the way- let your intent guide *you* and you will get there. also did you read the grounding stuffs i sent you. grab some rocks and stuff. put your hands in the dirt. remind yourself that the narrative will end. it will take time and hard work, but keep intending and it will get better
  17. I'm kind of realizing over the past few days that i might need to practice stalking a lot since my issues are so complicated... but what do i stalk? healing? is that too general? I could also stalk the source of the darkness but i think that could kind of end up in a bad way. like... searching for a needle in a hay stack and being surprised when you prick your finger. i used to practice stalking a while back, several years ago... and it's like i picked up where i left off. if necessary i can explain how i've been stalking but i will keep this one brief because the last post was a tome.
  18. I will begin by explaining my primary struggle: Sometimes (about once a week on average) I am overwhelmed by a solipsistic waking nightmare in which i am the only conscious entity and all the suffering in the world is my fault. It happens mostly in public places but sometimes it strikes at home. When i am hit with it I feel evil and pathetic. In it I am being given a choice. Accept the "knowing" that I am evil and punish myself or opt out of remembering my own lowliness and inherit a greater punishment. The idea behind it is that by sustaining my existence i am sustaining the horrors of this world. As an American i am dependent upon fossil fuels and plastic packaging and hegemony and cheap foreign wage slavery and what not. By destroying myself i would magically destroy these things. A lot of times there's white male guilt involved. Every time it happens it feels like the very end of the line. Yet It seems to one up itself every time. The sense of "knowing" i am evil is beyond disconcerting. This has been going on for arguably three or four years but i also had a similar theme about 8 or 10 years earlier in my life. In the earlier stages i was completely susceptible to it. I wasn't on anti-psychotics like i am now. I call it the condemnation narrative, though i used to call it "the shroud of pain". One time, In the earliest stages i was being told by some kind of entity to spin around in circles until my reality became hell itself. I'll never forget the one time when gripped by terror i started spinning clockwise and an entity of some kind ordered me to spin in the opposite direction. It was just like... NO. THE OTHER WAY. It was very important for some reason to do it widdershins (counter clockwise). I was so unaware of my surroundings that I literally fell through my father's glass coffee table putting a deep gash in my palm. I was bleeding everywhere. There's so much to tell about my journey... it's impossible to encapsulate it. But i will try to highlight some important moments. It probably started with a love triangle of sorts and FOOLISH power seeking. I was dating a woman and a male shaman she met introduced her to a ritual in my absence. She showed me the ritual one day. In it we both took off our shirts, sat cross legged before one another. Placed sage smudge ash on our foreheads and heart center, placed the flat of our right palm over each others hearts and stared into one another's eyes. We were to do this until we saw each other's face shift and blur and become that of our primary animal spirit totem. When i got home i did a version of the ritual in a mirror with myself. I began it by challenging the male shaman (stupid, ego driven, foolish). I saw the reflection of my face change into that of an angry wolf (the shaman's primary totem) looking back at me. My face in the mirror also changed into the woman i was dating and i watched as she got ripped away from me into another dimension. It also changed into a red faced demon who said "it's going to be hell for you". It felt like all the life energy had been sucked out of me after i was done and I passed out and woke up the next afternoon to literally 30 or more missed calls from the woman i was dating. She was going to visit her home country Azerbaijan for a lengthy time and was trying to reach me to change her mind. By the time I reached her it was too late. She had indeed been ripped away from me as i saw in the vision. I neglected to mention that After the ritual i felt like i was being followed by Something that did not have good intent. i also felt like i had a fox's ears and heightened sense of hearing. but the sensation of being followed by a specter was very real. I had other symptoms. i felt totally off. I got so bogged down by negative energies that eventually this all led me to go cross country to New Mexico via greyhound in search of a shaman. I had no plan or anything. I was just hoping it would fall into place by the grace of the universe. Which it kind of did... but definitely not like i'd imagined. On the way to new mexico i randomly got off the bus in a small town named Easton, Pennsylvania to return to my home in new york. but when i called my father he told me i couldn't come back. that if i really wanted to be a vagabond to try it out for "i don't know... a week or maybe a month". Anyway... i ended up running into a shaman woman one night in that small town. I saw her walking into a bar. I'm regularly quite shy about pursuing women... but this woman was glowing with white light and her aura was like... 20 feet tall like she was being followed by archangels. I NEEDED to talk to her. This woman became very important to my life. She introduced me to the moon blood mysteries and the goddess and eco feminism and shamanism in general. I also met a few brujos in New mexico when i finally got there about a month later. I'm not sure what they did to me, but at least one had targeted me. I have to leave a lot of details out unfortunately. there's just too much to cover. I also met an indigenous man there who told me "You're a spiritual warrior. You'll see the sky fill with demons. And you'll beat them but don't fight them." He said this to me about 50 times while we were holding eachother's wrists with our hands. He seemed like he really wanted to drill it into my mind and soul. But in california i hooked up with a shaman woman i found on the internet and she was excellent. She introduced me to a more benevolent power than what i was caught up in. It brought me to tears. I saw ganesha in a vision and i/she/we unblocked my svadisthana chakra and a river flowed up my spine. it was so beautiful. Words cannot describe the vividness of these healing visions. Also i had a few bad acid trips while i was in cali. i saw a demonic extra terrestial type woman with a crown of flowers and interlocking fangs take up the entire sky and she hated me SO much, just staring me down with pure hatred and finally i said to her “if you hate me such much then destroy me”. my whole body was shaking and she disappeared and a wolf's head flew into my heart chakra I have no idea how to interpret it. Was the wolf totem my reward? Was it my enemy? I don't know...... i even saw her the next day while sober. a man i was talking to in San Francisco was carrying A LOT of dark tension on one side of his body and i saw her head circling his feet. I told him " i feel like you have an angel on your right shoulder". He pulled back his shirt to reveal a tattoo of his late daughter with angel wings. The demonic woman's face disappeared. I met another powerful (very powerful) shaman while volunteering at Alex Grey's cosm. He didn't charge me for anything he did with me. Most notably he was holding my hand to "feel my nervous system" and his face was changing into ugly demons. Without me saying that i was seeing his face morph he told me "Whenever you see those i want you to say 'Those motherfuckers'. I asked him what they were and he replied "They're NOTHING." At one point in the healing, the culmination of it i suppose, he placed the flat of his palm on my heart and rubbed it vigorously and i broke out into hysterical laughter as though i had just been told the funniest joke ever, though I had no conscious knowledge of what I was laughing at. He also called me a "Bad ass angel warrior of light". Once again i have to leave a lot. I ended up meeting up with the woman from Pennsylvania again several years later and i set an intention to understand the blood moon mysteries of which she often spoke and it just totally blew me away. I wasn't expecting it to be so powerful. I saw it as peripheral but it turned out to be very central to my experience of her wisdom. At one point she told me i needed mothering and she let me lay my head in her lap. As soon as i said to myself "i wish i could lay here forever" she stood up and said... "you need a stick" she went outside and came back in with a stick and it was literally glowing with intense white light. She handed it to me and said "this is your inner rod of light. No one can give this to but yourself........... you're welcome." Another time i was staring at the word prayer in the gideons new testament and the text changed into an alien language, i was hearing people's prayers flood my mind and music so complex and layered and emotive that it could only be god's music and the entire room was shimmering with what i believe to have been the holy spirit. Words cannot describe. So yeah... super complex path I've walked. I've only scratched the surface. A lot of dark. a lot of light. a lot of vicious entanglements. But my main concern now is how to be able to function in the world without being overtaken by the "condemnation narrative"…. When it hits it just feels so awful. To say it again... it feels like i am the only conscious entity. All of my friends and family are illusions. No one loves me. God hates me. i'm killiing the world and i have to destroy myself. the world is beyond saving. this happens mostly when i am out in public. i'm very sensitive to things like car traffic and anything that is killing the earth. I generally react to it by shutting down stimuli. I'll lay down in my bed and just wait for it to pass. Sometimes i'll remind myself of good things i've done like donating to sick children and all sorts of causes and i'll remind myself about some of the light filled moments i mentioned earlier. The affirmations i've been given that I am on a light oriented path. But there's just so many ways i can relate to this condemnation narrative. I don't know how to approach it. I’ve been facing off with it for years but I don’t know how to approach it. I don't know how to heal.......... I really don't.
  19. Karl

    First Time Recapitulation (Recapping Trauma)

    I would recommend simply recapping your day, every day, starting out. As you do this, you will start to feel like things connect backwards into your past. Then recap those things, but avoid active relationships or history with your children, and also traumatic events. If something seems like it's "too big" to recap, then just skip it for now. Once you've acquired some experience and time with recap, you can start to work around the edges of those things which are more difficult. There's not a rush to do so. You'll feel like there's a good time to start working on it. This is also what we do in the classes, to start with. -karl
  20. peastacey

    First Time Recapitulation (Recapping Trauma)

    hey tom, i'm so happy you reached out here. recapping is great and i'm happy you went for it. and pleased honestly at your receptivity. and a little blown away by the strength of your intent. : o i do recommend recapping, but wait until you get replies from the shamans first and take the class i told you about if you're able to. in the meantime: sit outside on the ground or stand barefeet out there. hug a tree : ) read the article on grounding i e-mailed you. you might not notice anything right away- for me, i didn't because of my expectations. sometime within the past two weeks i reflected on it, seeing that grounding does in fact 'work' on me.
  21. Hi, a friend introduced me to the recapitulation exercise article on shamans cave. I overlooked the part in her email wherein she told me not to jump into the practice without talking to her about it first. I set a timer for 15 minutes and delved straight into recalling traumatic memories related to my father and my upbringing. After the first session i did an immediate follow up about my mother for about 5 minutes. I rarely if ever give much stock to how she made mistakes. I felt slightly overwhelmed after. I told my friend i had done this and she told me in so many words that it was a mistake to delve into deep traumas right off the get go. She urged me to reach out on the forum and to place emphasis on what i recapped and how i am feeling. I recapped complex physical, sexual, and emotional abuse. I am not feeling any particular long lasting repercussions. I am at a baseline level mentally and emotionally. She said i should focus on grounding and not start recapitulation. What advice would you have for me?
  22. Karl

    Need help to Work with Shadows

    Moving that far as kind of more of an advanced practice, a deeper plunge. If you want to start working with shadows, I would suggest using them to, at first, to simply let your awareness shift a bit. It's kind of a relaxing feeling, where suddenly "new stuff" leaks in, like things shift or fill in. I don't think most could touch on the shadow world without a good amount of practice, simply because it's a bit further away than the nearby movements of awareness.
  23. Hi, This is my 1st post in this forum, i have been following this site for sometimes and trying to do some self practice also. Yesterday i tried to see the shadow world as mentioned in this link (https://www.shamanscave.com/practices/working-with-shadows). I have tried it into my room at night. I have created shadow and tried to make intention to see the shadow world. after 2 hours (around) of practice i didn't feel any presence or not even can't see any thing. its not like i don't believe in shadow world or in the process. Now i'm seeking your suggestions. Please help to advise me if i did something wrong or if there anything i must do to work with shadow world. any kind of suggestion is very much appreciable. thank you
  24. MarthaWoodbury

    healing the shamanistic way

    Hey, that is really great information.
  25. silenceseeker

    Spirit Animals

    Sorry, no, we don’t work with spirit animals nor guides in the context they’ve become to be known in recent times. We tend to work with energy in a more direct manner. Lorrie
  26. phatty boomba

    Spirit Animals

    Hey guys, I am captivated with Spirit Animals and have become professional at assisting people find there own. I just discovered one of my spirit guides, a snake has two heads, I have searched the internet far and wide to find little information on this and can not find much. I am after some detailed information about what this means, so I can better understand myself. Also, on spirit Animals, is there any information you guys have for me on this topic? Any interesting facts to share?
  27. peastacey

    How to discover if I'm a shaman?

    whoa, i had a really hard time reading that list. Karl, thank you for your insights as usual : ) we put our energy in different places on a collective level these days then i imagine we once did. I think the way the 'call' might show up in 'western' cultures is this feeling unable to be superficial, and feeling unable to not see through things- this being complementary to how we're taught to spread our energy out thin, here in the states anyway. idk how it is elsewhere but i imagine that it varies culturally. Jonothon, I just wanted to tell you to open your heart to clarity again. You have a heart, and that's ultimately where your strength is. It's not gonna go away tomorrow. So take pressure off yourself. These're big visions you have for yourself and you might want to get there one day but you have to build up to it. Look for the 'grey' area of things- hypothetically, if you found yourself embracing a shamanic path today, you wouldn't be able to shout from a soap-box: "i'm a shaman!" tomorrow. i have been self-healing for several months and i am no where near that entitlement. No matter what, though, it's never about the identity. It really helps to let go of it- ultimately who we believe we are is irrelevant. Be good.
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