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  2. I only try to channel my own energy but sometimes I try to reach out with my own energy. I'm not sure if that is active or passive.
  3. The "dragon" (let's call it that) need not be negative. 1. It may be an entity (and thus, it may be trying to protect you or show you something). 2. It may be symbolic (e.g. represent something you need to do). From the information you've given, I suspect the latter. The trick now it to find out what it represents. Only you can know that. I found your comment on meditation interesting. If your mediation is passive, then it is almost impossible to "do something wrong" (although it may bring out negative emotions or thoughts, which can then be examined and dealt with). If the meditation is active (meaning you are trying to call/activate an entity or energy), then yes, care should be taken. Hope this helps and good luck.
  4. Spiritual healing is go through your inner spirit or your soul
  5. Was an interesting read, not sure if it's any help though. Luckily the presence is already getting less and I'm kind of accustomed to it now. I'm pretty sure that I did something while meditating that I wasn't supposed to do or maybe I was doing it wrong. When I think about it this way that eye changes back into that inner smile. I'm practicing to create something like a healing aura by concentrating on my heart chakra. I try opening it as much as I can, letting the energy flow and radiate through my whole body. Not sure if it works but sometimes it feels like it works. I often try to connect to the one I care most about with that same energy and I think that was the problem. This seems to have attracted this being. It kind of feels like that that being is part of my higher self. I can also feel the eye connected to my 3rd eye chakra.
  6. One time when I was in a deep meditative state I heard this voice say my name with tonality. Very strange because usually my thoughts are without tonality and this voice did not have my inflection or tonality. Still haven't figured out what to make of it, but I'm following some breadcrumbs which will I know will unravel into understanding it eventually. There have been very few other times after that one where I've got experiences almost approaching it, but only audible enough to hear sound without being audible enough to make meaning out of it. These other times were in lighter meditative states, so my guess is it has to do with a specific state of consciousness that I sometimes fall into where I let go in this extreme way where I almost fall out of traditional existence. I haven't quite figured out how to operate the controls to this altered state of consciousness, but I'll describe what it feels like and maybe you will find it useful or can make some sense out of it. Part of the feeling is not being grounded it my identity. Almost like the feeling of blackout that comes when I drank to that point in the past. I noticed this feeling because when I heard my name the first time it shocked me out of the deep meditative state. There was this absolute stillness that I was inseparable from. There was no separation that comes from experiencing the flesh. Like I know the boundaries on physical form through the sensations that tell me the boundaries. The hairs on my skin rustling in the air and the skins tensions, temperatures, and other sensations clearly defining those boundaries between me and not me. So none of these sensations were present, yet I also still felt my existence. It was not through my mind which is how I normally experience my existence. I normally experience myself through my mind's point of view. The sensations are felt then interpreted, acknowledged, and described through my mind most of the time. So aside from the lack of physical, mental, etc sensations there was also this experience of beforehand of the meditation technique starting to operate on it's own. The technique is called Vipassana and it works like this in it's most basic form, you start at the top of your head and do body scanning from that point down to your shoulders, each arm, torso, each leg, then back up in the opposite way you went down, like if you went down your left then right leg then go up your right leg then left leg then torso then right arm then left arm etc. So normally I do the technique by maintaining my awareness of the point of my body that I am currently scanning, eg top of the head, holding equanimity, allowing the sensation to come and go. It takes a lot of focus because I have to constantly bring my drifting attention back to the process of scanning through the technique. For some reason during this specific meditation after I was meditating for I don't know how long my attention was continuously focused on performing the body scanning technique. My awareness was not tethered to my attention though. This separation of attention and awareness I think is the state of consciousness that occurred when I experienced the phenomena that I was talking about earlier of hearing the voice with tonality. Anyways I did the technique and I noticed that my attention was "stuck" in doing it, not that I couldn't get out of it sense but in the autopilot kind of way. My awareness on the other hand was within the absolute stillness experiential place. The voice's emotional context was holding a space of wanting my attention, wanting to tell me something. Kind of that emotion you feel from people or feel in yourself when something just happened and you are rapidly trying to inform someone of something. Not to the extent that something really bad has happened, but to the point that the toilet is overflowing and you need some help figuring out how to resolve it to prevent the problem from getting worse. That kind of anxiousness, but not necessarily fear. At the time I had this experience I freaked out pretty hard because it didn't make a lick of sense. I didn't have anyone to talk about it either and I still haven't figured out what the hell happened, but writing a response to your post has brought a lot of clarity and there were a few other experiences that allowed me to build up my understanding of it. Regardless, I hope this helps in some way. Regards, Alex
  7. There are those that come into this live with an experiential certainty of gender. To the extent that they believe when they get to a certain age they will be shocked that their gender hasn't changed and won't change, in the case where that gender does not line up with their experience of themselves. In this case the poster is seeking out broader sources to solve a challenge in their life they aren't finding support in other parts of their lives. Essentially the feel they don't have the power to bring about meaningful change in their life. How might this person best be empowered to have the change they want instead of the change we think they need?
  8. To me people that feel that they are something else are still connected to a past life. They still haven't adapted to their new life because of that connection. They easiest option would be to accept that new life to its fullest.
  9. I got a simple cold last week. While I was lying in bed I had this inner voice (as if talking to myself) ask in the voice of someone I care about if she could come in. I "said" yes first and then continued with "if you are really that person". But that second part seems to have been ignored. Since then I have this daydream like picture/vision of a black/dark dragon like being inside my thoughts. Most of the time it is just it's eye looking at me. Sometimes when I open my mouth it feels like it's also opening its mouth. As if I'm the dragon or becoming it. It's not a very accurate description but I'm not sure how to describe it, it's a really strange feeling. It's a bit disturbing and distracting it's not a full illusion that I can actually see though, it's more like I imagine it and that I'm stuck on imagining it whenever I don't concentrate on something. Sometimes it even happens when I try concentrating on something. Before this I often had this dark picture of a smile in my thoughts but not as frequent as this dragon like being. Any ideas what this could be? I'm not sure who to talk to with about this. If i went to a modern doctor I doubt that would do anything but waste my and their time.
  10. You're the only one who can translate your experience with Ayahuasca. Cheers!
  11. thanks for that peastacey I appreciate all the info about this topic
  12. To add to the topic of sleep paralysis, just BC I feel I'm *quite* the seasoned expert on the subject , Myaa, if this is a relevant topic to you or not lol: I came to a point recently where I choose 'radical acceptance' of it when I feel it coming on. This allows me to ride over it like a cloud, pushing my breathing into the space below my belly and opening my heart wide. It's an opportunity to intend everything you need to in this spitfire manner. For me, i come out of it all aware and enlightened. If sleep paralysis happens to you and you try it, Myaa, you might see that in a sense we choose to color our perceptions in the way that seems to make the most sense to us (eg. Terror upon entering REM paralysis), but if you switch it to the opposing perception (love upon entering REM paralysis), you notice how capable of speaking directly to God/what-have-you you are... For anyone who reads this that has seizures with auras, this applies too...my last seizures I saw everything so clearly, like a great owl swooping around me and a huge ball of light, I heard myself think, "THERE IT IS!"; came out feeling cleared out of all my ish and enlightened. < 3 S
  13. i appreciate all the help on this topic i'll keep this in mind
  14. I've been in a sleep paralysis state before. Kind of made my body feel super tingly all over. I just willed myself out of it by pushing myself into a more wakeful state. Kind of like that feeling when you are doing a push up where you feel some resistance to completing it. You will yourself to continue until you complete the push up. It was similar for me with sleep paralysis. My entire body felt that resistance towards any movement. I pushed through it to get past it.
  15. I meant without being able to move energetically, from shamanic perspective we want our dreaming energy free, so that it can touch and affect the world. I know it sounds crazy but there you go Most people have their dreaming energy caged by the mind, so that you can only dream of what the mind dumps there. As a result the dreams tend to be bizarre and disjointed. There's a disconnect, shamans want to and need to bridge that gap so that they can access all of their energy and do things intentionally with it. There are practices for that, but it's unrelated to lucidity really. Becoming lucid doesn't really bridge that gap, it's mostly a mind thing, though it does poke a tiny hole into the wall between awake/dreaming. Sleep paralysis is different, if you ever experience it, there are things you can do to get out of that state. In sleep paralysis you are kind of stuck (but not really) between two different states, your body is asleep but you are not fully in your dreaming energy and thus aware of your body, but not enough to affect it. There's no reason to be afraid of that state, you are not really paralyzed and you can either wake up or fall asleep at will. If you want to go back to dreaming, you can just relax and sort of fall back fully into dreaming energy. If you want to wake up, probably the easiest way to do that is to focus on your breathing and let it be your guide into becoming more fully aware of your body, which will wake you up. Or you can just get really angry at the fear and will yourself awake, but that's more jolting and not as eloquent. Kai
  16. Hi, from shamanic perspective whether you are lucid or not is not that important, lucidity is more of a mind thing, meaning you can be lucid but still stuck in very shallow levels of dreaming, without being able to move with any kind of power. The dreaming practices in this tradition for example don't rely on lucidity at all and it's not really a goal per se. That said, when I was younger lucid dreaming was something I was very much interested in. For me, making a habit of performing 'reality checks' while awake worked best. For example checking the time on a clock, looking elsewhere and then checking time again. If you are awake, results are very predictable, but in dreaming for most people the clock might have turned into a pink hippo the 2nd time. If you keep doing that with the intent of also doing it in dreaming, it will become a routine for your mind and it'll perform it for you in dreaming as well, at which point you should realize things are wonky and become lucid. The reality check itself can be anything, even just looking at your hands and examining them intently. Like I said, it's not really important for shamanic dreaming movement and becoming lucid by itself will not really do much for you, but it can be fun and stretch the boundaries a bit.
  17. i tried it before, but for some reason i was never lucid, it was just way harder for me to find sleep and i had dreams about different languages. any suggestions?
  18. hi SacredBridge, Lucidity in dreaming isn't necessary to have shamanic dreaming movements or follow a dreaming intent, for example, to not be afraid in dreams, or to change them when things happen. Sometimes, moving more intently in dreams in a direct manner will actually decrease lucidity in dreaming because the energy is moving in a way where the mind doesn't become involved. Lucidity is often more a mental awareness or consciousness thing than a dreaming thing. You can "know" you're dreaming in a dream but not rise to consciousness in a lucid manner because they are two separate things. When our dreaming self "dives" into the dream, lucidity is a process of that dreaming state partially moving into normal awareness from the dreaming side. However, the energy in dreaming can also follow other paths, where we direct it through dreaming intent, emotional energy, etc., and it can be even more effective than lucidity. (Although maybe less cool) While a lot of dreaming practices or books or sites emphasize lucidity in dreaming, in my view it's not necessary to move your energy. If you pay attention to how the dream "moves" and your energy is moving in the dreams, how you feel, you can find awareness of dreaming even if you're not conscious, and that works just as well as a trigger. -karl
  19. Hello! I'm new here. Although, I've been watching the youtube show since the beginning. I was wondering if anyone has had a similar experience or had some insight for me. I have been lucid dreaming for quite some time now. Most of the time when something disturbing happens and/or scary in my dreams I become lucid. I know that I'm dreaming, can change the environment, and do pretty much whatever I would like to. Recently, I have been having some distressing dreams, but instead of becoming lucid I just change the dream. I'm not aware that I'm dreaming, or at least, I don't think I do. However, I know I'm able to fly/move through walls/change the environment. This has happened to me a few times now. How can I not know that I'm dreaming but I know I can fly away!? I was wondering if anything like this has happened to those of you who journey. Perhaps I journey enough that my mind thinks I can fly most of the time? Haha. This is a new experience for me.
  20. Hi, I should first mention that I'm not going to be explaining everything you saw. I can't do that, not because I don't want to, but rather because I just don't have an extensive knowledge of the human lore surrounding what an elemental lord, minor elemental, or even archangel is. But, I do recognize that we can come across those kinds of manifestations of lore and interact with them. And, I want to validate what you experienced. It sounds like it was life-changing and very powerful for you. I also have to say, that, honestly, if you are channeling w/those elementals and gaining knowledge about them and from them, trust your own instincts over what *anyone* might tell you about them. Don't give away your personal power in that way. The worlds are infinitely vast, and shared/known human knowledge is very, very limited in those kinds of matters. Maybe another thing to keep in mind is that, often, entities will relate to you in ways you are already familiar... they can be aware of your history/knowledge/cultural upbringing/language usage... and use that to best interact with you. They can essentially follow along the same kinds of grooves/threads that you follow to better relate with you, if they want to. For instance, you believe in calling Earth the Great Mother... so it makes sense that you would hear them calling you 'child,' because it fits your worldview. So, too, receiving the instinctive push to spiral the knife in the water, possibly simulating a male/female impregnation construct and/or raising something like a cone of power, again maybe something similar in a tradition you might be familiar with. But, too, (speaking from my own experience) the experiences you have could also be wholly unfamiliar to you, too... like maybe take the puck you came across, as an example. Since you are still able to channel those entities, I would recommend using your connection with them to answer the questions you seek. Set an intent to find out what they call themselves and what they are known as, in the omniverse and/or to humans. Maybe ask for a clarification of what your agreement is with them, with regard to the channeling? What do they gain, what do you gain, from your connection? Another point, for your own personal growth... perhaps consider letting go of your tight attachment to your experiences and with those entities. I'm not saying stop channeling them, but rather, loosen your emotional attachment to them. It's pretty clear to me that your initial experience from 3 years ago affected you, and still affects you, emotionally, today. May I gently suggest that you consider that when you hold onto something very tightly with both hands, it makes it harder to accept something more that may come for you. In other words, by staying emotionally attached to your special experiences, you limit yourself by way of your expectations, knowledge, and the boundaries of possibility, etc. In our tradition, we loosen our grip on the attachment, of the emotional energy of our experiences, via the recapitulation exercise. Of course, you may have your own way of doing this, but you can find the maker tradition how-to about it here, if you're interested: https://www.shamanscave.com/self-healing/the-recapitulation Thank you for sharing your story. Perhaps you'll hear more from other makers about your questions. -Holly
  21. Hi, I wonder if anyone might be able to help. I went on a camping holiday to a remote beach about three years ago and decided to ‘Bear Grylls’ it and forage for my food and take a deck of Thoth tarot as I find it useful for meditating upon and accessing my subconscious mind. The beach is in Sussex and is three miles walk along the beach under the cliffs to get to when the tide is out. It’s remote, it’s picturesque and it’s incredibly beautiful. It’s also very magical. Ancient forest is on top of the cliffs and has come down as the cliffs have collapsed over the years, resulting in tiered woodland with natural springs feeding woodland pools and waterfalls which run onto the beach. It’s also used as a naturist beach. so I’d been camping three or four days and was living off of spring water, raw cat tail root, blackberries and seaweed. I wasn’t eating much and was exercising a lot, swimming, climbing the cliffs and running along the beach. I was sleeping in my tent at night and basking in the sun during the day so I was pretty exposed to the elements too. on the fourth day I decided I needed to do something to honour The Great Mother (that’s what I call Gia/Mother nature). I had been collecting drinking water from a waterfall which comes down the cliff face and onto the beach forming a shallow pool, which then trickles off to the sea. i woke at dawn on the fourth day with my mind filled with a ritual of how I could honour the Great Mother. Some of the ritual felt like it was my own idea and some of it didn’t. Naked, I washed myself thoroughly in the sea and then used sand and dried seaweed to scrub my skin. I used water mint that grows wild in the area and made orange oil from a couple of Oranges I’d brought with me. I had a very strong instinct that I needed to not smell like a man for the ritual. i walked to the fall still naked and knelt in the mud at the edge of the pool asking ‘blessed mother, may I drink some of your sacred waters?’ i was very surprised when in my mind a feminine presence answered with what seemed to be a voice coming from the direction of the fall. It said simply ‘yes, you may.’ I went prostrate on the earth and began lapping at the water at the edge of the pool. I felt very meek and very humble and very blessed. when I had my fill of water I asked out loud ‘blessed mother, may i enter your sacred waters’ to which this time I got the reply ‘yes child... you may’ as I stepped into the pool I had the most peculiar sensation. Like going from being nothing in the face of the universe to being a newly born child to being a toddler to being a young child to being an adolescent to being a young man to being a warrior to being a lover. To say it was an odd sensation is an understatement but it was very powerful. i walked into the pool and up to the fall. I sat on a rock in the pool by the fall and contemplated the beauty of the place. After a while I asked ‘Blessed mother, may I take some of your sacred waters’ and again got the reply ‘yes child... you may.’ I filled my water bottle and offered a prayer of thanks for the communion. I resolved to leave some offerings for whatever spirit was at the fall and so I walked the three miles into the nearest village to get supplies. i knew instinctively that whatever was at the fall wanted golden/yellow things and was worth more than gold, so I chose offerings in those colours that where once considered more valuable than gold. I got golden coloured white wine, golden yellow freesias (they where my grandmothers favourite flower, not for any other reason) honey, turmeric, and tobacco. walking back to the beach I once again stripped and performed my cleansing ritual and the ritual to enter the pool. i left the wine and the flowers in the fall itself and laid my offerings in scallop shells I’d found on the beach in the shallows of the water. I also had the instinct that whatever was there wanted other people to Be able to purify themselves and approach it, so near the pool I planted artemisia, lavender, thyme and basil, all of which are sacred/purifying herbs. Once again, the voice from the fall referred to me as ‘child’. i stayed at the beach for a further week and repeated the ritual every day, at least twice a day. During this time I experienced at least three of what I believe to be partial past life regressions, which i had never experienced before. after 2-3 more days I had the instinct that I needed to perform a purification ritual on the land, even though i didn’t know what I was doing. I took a camping knife I had with me and again naked waded into the sea up to my waist. I began tracing spiral patterns in the water with the blade which became more and more forceful. I then traced spirals in the air and I could feel the water rising around me into the air to become clouds. Using the knife I traced a path for the clouds back to the land, and from the land to the earth where the water would flow after falling as rain. I then traced the path of the waterfall down the cliff and Blessed the pool in the name of the Great Mother. I traced the rivulets running from the pool to the sea and repeated the cycle again. I kept repeating ‘this is the water, blessed is the water. This is the air, Blessed is the air. This is the earth, blessed is the earth’ over and over again. I got faster and faster and entered what I can only describe as being a in a state of spiritual ecstacy. I could feel incredible power flowing into me from the water and into the air and had the sense that the air and the water where communing through me and blessing the land. I must’ve continued this for half an hour or more. Since then (three years ago) I have increasingly ‘channeled’ at least a dozen different entities that both speak through me and act through me, although completely with my will and consent. one of them is some kind of manifestation of water and speaks with an ululating voice that is a cross between a waves sigh and sonar and whale song. It’s showed me how it feels to be the water and the waves. It’s shared knowledge with me including how water first gained consciousness through the holy light when it felt it pouring through what it/I regard as it’s hair but which In actuality are the ocean depths. In my mind and with dance/mime it’s shown me how the water rose to the air and began to commune with it, in the process learning that the water could take some of the airs essence into it and vise versa. Thus the waters became enriched with oxygen. the water prayed to the holy light to help it create consciousness as it had created consciousness in it. It reached deep down into the ocean depths and took nutrient rich sediment and placed it in the swirling vortex of water that it considers to be its womb and asked the light and the air to bless it. And thus life was born. The water whispered to the life, instructing it on the sacred patterns of creation and gradually life grew more complex. The water instructed the fishes in the spiral dances of the sea and encouraged them to move into the domains of earth and air. the ‘channelling’ feels very powerful. I completely surrender to the spirit within me but I have the sense that I can be myself again any time I want. I can’t (won’t...) summon them at will, although I have discovered I can touch upon some ‘Essence’ of them when I remember and try to re-enact what they have done before. they come and go on their own but they are extremely protective of me. Several times now when I have been threatened or have felt threatened they have intervened. there is also what I instinctively believe to be a spirit of air which came later after water and needed me to get used to water first in order to manifest. then came what I regard as the spirit of fire, which sings and dances and ‘speaks in tongues’ to a certain tune. Last and most recently came something that reacted very vocally hostile to someone who was threatening me and which has a language comprised of ‘ack’ sounds. Words like ‘pakka, Hakka, takka, vakka.’ It refers to itself as ‘puckmarin’ which I have looked up and found only references to an alien in a children’s film, however a ‘puck’ is also called a brownie, which is a type of earth spirit. So ‘puck-Marin’ might be ‘the earth spirit by the sea’. im just wondering if anyone could shed some light on what these entities may be, especially the water one. The channelling began after the ritual at the pool. i personally have put them down to possibly being many things including elemental lords, minor elementals, manifestations of the elements and archangels. i was spiritual before but didn’t practice any faith. I have begun to tread the path of the lightworker/angel worker/elemental shaman instinctively. id be grateful for any opinions on what exactly I might be channelling. Even if it’s a bad case of sunstroke! Lol. many thanks for listening to my story and Blessed be.
  22. We respect everything you said Deathwalker as we respect in everyone's opinion. I guess what Peastacey mean in this post is everyone has the right to express what they feel and think regardless of people accept them or not, like them or dislike them, or whether other people find it disturbing. Because truly, who we are to judge upon another when we don't know what they been through in life. We respect what science or medicine say about something but for us here we explore what is beyond impossible. I can't argue on what you see and believe, its hard to teach people when they are in their strong position. But thank you for your post and you are always welcome.
  23. I'm having a hard time understanding what you mean by "intimate and valid placenta". Was that a spelling error? Regardless, I believe that it is incorrect to say that just because you "know in your heart" that you are something that you're not means that it is authentic. It is actually damaging to your psyche to believe you are something you are not. When the question arises "who am I" and what you believe you are contradicts the reality of what you are, it is a source of great confusion and strife. It is a medical condition called Gender Dysphoria, as I'm sure you've heard. It is not a good idea to indulge in these thoughts or obsess over them. If a person with dementia tells you that they are a giant speckled Easter egg, it doesnt do any good to tell them "yes Mrs. Smith, you are indeed a giant speckled Easter egg." Instead, you would try to distract them from having such thoughts by engaging them in a different subject, rather than play into their delusions. It is my opinion that people with gender dysphoria should not be encouraged to indulge themselves in the delusion of being the opposite gender. There is no scientific way to actually change your gender. Even if you go through the process of gender reassignment surgery, you will still be what you were born as. It is encoded into your DNA, and your feelings do not change that fact, no matter how strong your feelings may be. With regards to Northi's question, the problem lies with the fact that they were asking for supernatural forces to change their appearance. This desperation is not good or healthy. That is a classic case of dysphoria, which is a mental illness, and should not be encouraged.
  24. Everyone's experiences with their respective gender identities comes from a very intimate and valid placenta. Likewise, what we know with our hearts to be authentic about ourselves, whether this contradicts the perceptions others have of who we are, is probably better off expressed in the world so that we can move in it in a way that makes sense to us. To find peace with it is important, and I think what Northi was asking for help with. S
  25. Northi, It is a difficult thing to deal with, believing you were born in the wrong body. It is hard to come to terms with, but I do not believe that anyone is born in the wrong body. I think this feeling stems from issues endured during early childhood, and are not indicative of a reality. It is impossible to become the opposite gender or sex, it is encoded into your DNA and you cannot change your DNA. I think it would be best if you accepted who you were born to be, and attempt to come to terms with your feelings as they relate to your gender. You asked if there was a spirit or angel that grants wishes, and you wanted to wish for a change in your appearance or life. This is very troubling to hear, and it reveals to me that what you really want is an easy way out of your predicament. I'm sorry to say that when you have a problem as big as believing you are something you're not, there is no easy way to fix it. I doubt you will even read this, but I feel like I needed to say it anyway. I wish you luck.
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