Thanks Mandy, I did my starter course with the sacred trust and although I had planned to move on to the more advanced classes immediately afterwards on reflection I'm not ready. It would just exhaust me further. I know how to journey now though so that's helpful, I also met my power animal for the first time and we danced that was nice. Going to stick with the access course as it's started now but yeah, trying to do too many things at once is killing me. I'm going back to see the healer I saw originally as I've let myself get into a bad way again but I think looking after myself a bit better should be my aim right now. I had a baked potato for my dinner the other day too. I will learn, slowly does it I think.

Hi I'm not sure if this is a good place to be or not but at the minute my head is all over the place and I just don't know what I'm doing. I guess the major thing that brought me here was my personal crisis which was 6 years long, I came out of it without a thyroid and a diagnosis of dissociative identity disorder. I have had a healing session with a shaman I found on the internet through a place called the sacred trust in the UK. She restored parts of my soul that I had lost, healed a trauma from a past life, took some spirit attachments off and restored my power animal. My knowledge of this is iffy so sorry if the terms don't make sense. I have a starter course booked this weekend called "the shamans pathway" through the sacred trust and they are teaching me some basic stuff, I am also involved with a local spiritual group who are teaching me pranayama and mantras. I rather stupidly (or not I'm not sue at the minute) started an access course to HE so my day is pretty full up at the minute with various activities, feeling a bit overwhelmed, confused and slightly drained. I am seeing messages in the sky which I sort of understand but don't at the same time. I don't know how to look after myself, I don't know anything about this subject, I know it has something to do with the endocrine system because of the thyroid thing but beyond that I'm pretty clueless. I am not spiritual at all, I don't even believe in ghosts haha. So yeah, that's me. Sam X