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I am Asatru, and a practicing Shaman for over 20 years.  That does entail several NDE's, experiences which should send me to the hospital (and have) if I tell the wrong people certain things.  That is because they haven't spent the time I have on the bleeding edge between this world and the Umbra (my name for it), and they don't understand.  Hello all, I'm Varg, and I came here hoping find community with people who do understand what I'm talking about.

I've had a particularly odd past week.  And that's saying a lot for a Shaman of as long as I've practiced.  I would love to talk with someone who is real, and that's why I cam here, and can understand what I'm saying.  I would love a reply from someone, even someone new to the practice, from whatever faith - we're all in the same business - who won't commit me to the hospital.  I say that because I once mentioned a dream I had to my sister and she dragged me there.  Any Shaman would know what I mean.  I need a place where I can speak with like-minded folk.

So again, hello, I am Varg.  This is the first time I'm reaching out to others who live as I do, and I have had a very crazy last week which I'm still trying to make sense of.  We can discuss that later.  Yes, I am fine.  you can even see my YouTube channel and hear and see that I'm a normal functioning part of society here;

https://www.youtube.com/darkdally

I live and work from home.  What the public doesn't know is my lifelong practice which has almost killed me multiple times, but here I am and I know very well how to reach the other side.  I hope this is a place for people like myself and not ... idk.

Thank you

-Varg

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,,,as a postscript there is a spirit in my house with me, but at towards me she is entirely benevolent.  She is my "guard dog" if you will.  She will injure those, and I've seen it, who aim to bring harm into my household.  I find it very comforting to be honest.  Things like this are things that I cannot tell to anyone, and so I hope it's safe, understood, and able to speak about here.  

-Varg

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Hello, Vargtid. Nice to meet you. 

Can I ask, what does being a practicing shaman mean to you? I find it to be such a broad, blanket term.  We here are Makers, from a tradition that originated in France about a century ago. I see you are reaching out, you can find out more about the tradition here by browsing the public articles available on this site. Please feel free to ask any questions, a number of us often check the site and are happy to answer any questions, about the tradition we practice and general shamanic topics.

Welcome to Shamanscave!

Eman  

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Okay, what does it mean to me?

Every culture has Shamans - Africa, South America, Native America, Rasputin was a Shaman, Odin, even Jesus was a Shaman.  I honestly haven't read anything here and I'll tell you why.

We experience the edge of the door, or beyond the door to that other place.  I call it the Umbra.  I know the use of drugs is common,  but I've used them almost to the edge of psychosis.  I stopped some time ago with that.  Nowadays I just go days and nights with no food or sleep of my own cogniscience.  Trust me in that I don't want me to.  The spirits draw me there.  I haven't read anything here because this is who I am for over 20 years and I have hundreds of books on.  

I really appreciate your answer.  I posted here because I was hoping to find some people I could talk to, you know :)

I've been drowned, stabbed, and drugged multiple times, and then taken certain drugs myself as I said, to the edge of psychosis to reach this side of that door, as well as inducing lucid dreams and et cetera.  I have not read your forum, no.  I thought this was a place where I could post and not sound crazy.  It's just that I've spent half my life looking into the other side and was looking for .... I actually don't know..... something.

Thank you for your reply ma'am-

-Varg 

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ᛁ ᚾᛟ ᚹᚨᛏ ᚨ ᛊᚺᚨᛗᚨᚾ ᛁᛉ

-ᚹᚨᚱᚷ

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Hi Vargtid, yes I agree every culture has their own shamans, I know what Asatru is, I have a great respect here for polytheism and your heritage, and yes, while drugs may sometimes be a shortcut for spontaneous experiences, they are just that- spontaneous, you are not in control, and here we are drug-free and learn to do all that we do with our own energy the experiences you can have by yourself alone, as you may have seen, are much more exciting.  I'm happy for you that you stopped the drugs, I know all about that too, as you experienced they are only a screen saver, the real ability comes from your own energy. Take your energy back from all the drugs now that you stopped them and see what happens to you *grin*.

You are right, this is a place where you don't sound crazy- crazy is normal here, weird is good. All of us here I think have been drawn to an energetic intent put out by the universal intent to bring more shamanism out into this world to help heal it and do all the fun crazy stuff we shamans like to do. We are dreamers, healers, energy movers, stalkers, time travelers, we move through worlds and explore them there are so many fascinating creatures out there.... yes NDE's, active dreaming, talking to the dead, yes all signs of someone who is bent, I've had my own share of that in fact I would say your NDE's probably brought out your shamanic side even more.... you have very interesting energy, and you are not wrong this is a place where you can talk to any of us, we all all with one foot in life and one foot in death, in this world and others.

Yes books don't teach you I agree, energy teaches you, everything I know and have learned has been taught to me energetically or I have learned it by myself, never from a book.

The spirit in your house, the one you call your guard dog, is pretty interesting, we call beings like her "Allies", they come in many shapes and forms and often there is an energetic exchange between the shaman and the ally.

We're all about personal power and energy here, about taking our energy back from this world, healing ourselves to the point of complete freedom and power that we can go anywhere and see anything in this world and out. You've come to a group of shamans where we think weird and crazy is good because it usually means it's outside of that narrow microscopic world view most humans experience life through.

Truly, welcome here, ᚹᚨᚱᚷ. The shamans here come from all over the world, I'm sure someone else will probably jump in and say hello at one point too.

 

e.

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Hail and Welcome, Varg! We are of different traditions, but I see you, welcome you, and am glad you've come by Shamanscave. :)

Holly 

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Hi,

Funny thing, i'm somewhat close to asatru, i have heard Thor speaking in sleep paralyzis. But i'm sure in many ways i'm very different than you, for example you seem very much identified with manliness, where as i'm biologically male but psychologically i'm of no specific gender, but that's how the seidrs are too -> sorcery was "forbidden" or at least shunned for male people, and they'd dress in female clothes to become of no gender. Maybe this is why when i was younger i flipped out at baba yaga when she came, told her i was a man - even if i had asked for her to teach me.


I also did not go to military training, even if its a standard in my country =), don't know if you despise that decision with your background. I do have a hunting license thought, but i have never actually hunted, and I would want to do it in fair and ethical way, like bow hunting. The prey would have a chance, and uhh, i would get boost from actually managing to hunt something with a bow. I do kind of collect weaponry with my spouse thought, CO2 guns, knives, swords, axes. I'd say regardless of our gender we both express both genders.


I always automatically always think of Varg Vikernes, when i see the name Varg :-D. Suppose in my weirdness i'm more like mr Espedal (Gaahl) than Varg, but not exactly. I'm not sure are these people even popular in USA, so you might be wondering what the hell.


But perhaps you listen to Wardruna? Gaahl was formerly associated with them, and their lead singer was associated with Gorgoroth. mentioning these people was somewhat trivial, but the meaning was to sort out the cultural context, of both art and shamanism in our living spheres.

More like a pagan in general myself, than a specific type of shaman, a lot of people of course have problem calling themselves/others shamans anyways if they are not tribally chosen, but i don't much care about that. I think saying that I was a shaman would make no difference for someone who is not into paganism and all that. I'd be a bad shaman anyways, i can sense a lot of things - but i also mess up a lot. 

If you have read Sapkowskis hussite trilogy, i'm like the Reinmar Bielau guy, always running in to troubles of some sort. (If you have read it, don't spoil it, i'm waiting for Lux Perpetua finnish translation this summer).

 

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