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Thank you for sharing this. Your energy is so beautiful and the love/bond energy you had with your kitty. She could understand you in such a way and you her that is so beautiful. Loads of hugs and know that is really beautiful this energy.

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I'm sorry for your loss, Nick. Your tribute to her and how she was interwoven into your life is beautiful. I think you also illustrated how the detachment we talk about as Makers doesn't mean, ' not feeling,' I think because we are more detached from the world, we tend to feel emotions with incredible purity and strength, like a child does before they learn how to shut the world out. I think placing her in view of the bird bath was a nice touch. And I think you made the right choice for her to go at that time, to keep her going would have been for you, not for her. And I think being with your pet, in those last moments, giving them comfort, letting them know they are loved is the best you can possibly do in those last moments here- think of her cat energy, returning to the pool, feeling that love and how that love that she brings in with her will enrich that pool for the new kitties coming into our world. Lorrie

@Nick "Living a life that is worth going through the pain of dying." The grief can show you things, a nugget of knowledge, when you feel ready maybe try this, go out in your garden and really set it free, move the energy of your sadness, move it into the word, into the trees, the ground, the rocks, let your awareness carry it out and touch everything in the world. Do that with all the will you can muster. I understand the joy, this movement can be quite joyful. Then in the empty space where the sadness was you will see something powerful just for you, probably even more gifts of knowledge that relationship created. C

{{Nick}} So sorry to hear of your loss. I know how much it hurts right now, but that's nothing compared to the connection you shared. In a way sharing this doesn't seem like the right time, but since I was reminded of it, I'll do it anyway. I used to have two cats, they are both gone now but it was interesting how they dealt with seeing me in pain. They both stalked it really effectively but in different ways. My other cat was a sweetheart about it, she'd poke her head at my heart and meow at me. My other cat, she just wouldn't give a shit. She would just stare me down ruthlessly, while going all high and mighty Egyptian goddess on me. There was something really funny about that, after a while it would always bring me great joy. It's difficult to explain, it's just the perspective she provided through our connection struck me that way. I don't think exploring your grief or even finding joy in it is a dishonor to Kitty. The opposite if anything, cats are curious stalkers. Kai

A beautiful tribute to Kitty, Nick. And to death, and life. ((((((hugs)))))) cheri

So sorry Nick for your loss of Kitty, I feel you. Our bond with our cats is very special, a true connection and love shared unequivocally. I understand how you are feeling right now, know it will pass and remember that Kitty is not gone but just moved on.. ((hugs)) Belle

I’m so sorry Nick. 😢❤️ My dog Cleo was my heart dog. She passed away 6 years ago…I grew up with other dogs and didn’t think I would be affected the way I was when she passed, so I know what it’s like (it sucks 🙁) but it does get better with time. ((hugs))

So my cat died two days ago. I can't really say it was unexpected. I knew for awhile that she had maybe a year or so left. I took that information and generally made the most of what time I had left, but now that she's gone I am feeling all sorts of things. There is of course the usual regret. There were times where she wanted more pets than I had left in me on a given day. Days where I felt like doing other things than holding her. Looking back, whatever it was that I was busying about with was not really as important as maybe taking that extra moment and holding her. Kitty liked to be held. At least she did before things got bad last week. I could tell things were progressing when that changed. There wasn't a whole lot I could have done to prevent it. Bi-monthly blood transfusions averaging to about 5 K a pop unfortunately weren't an option. Even if I had the money I wonder if it would be worth it. You take away the monetary value that somehow we place on a life and what's left is quality. Was kitty happy ? For most of her life I would say she was. I heard the expression soul animal for the first time just last week and while I was reluctant to say definitively Kitty was my "soul animal" - i can now in fact confirm, kitty was a soul cat. There's just something about that bond. I don't believe it's a one and done, like I will never be able to have that sort of deep connection with another animal because I know I will and can, but for whatever relationships I have in the future, mine and kitties relationship will be unique. I've been through a lot with kitty. Life has changed immensely over the last 12 years, which is how old she was. Kitty was a constant. I would go to work and then home, alone and spend hours upon hours just hanging with kitty. It's unfortunate that we never are able to fully grasp just how important something is to us until we lose it. Even when we know and cherish what time we have our minds hide from us the immensity of our emotions. Or at least try. I never doubted that I loved kitty. There has never really been much I wouldn't do for her. And that love was something I felt all of the time. So many hours of just togetherness. Not like lost in love or anything like that, but just moments. Very special moments where you could be yourself, pour your heart into something and really be asked absolutely nothing in return. Well . . Almost nothing. Kitty liked treats. Loved tuna, yogurt. The underside of her chin scratched as she was held and leaned backwards with her face pointed down at the ground. When she was younger kitty did flips with me. Sadly there came a day where she no longer cared to do that, but there really wasn't a limit to the trust she placed in me. One time she got fleas. I was pretty broke at the time and was exploring ways to get rid of her fleas that didn't cost money. I decided a bath would work. Kitty laid on my chest and had all but her head submerged for at least an hour. I thought drowning the fleas would work. It didn't, but what cat lets their person do that for them. Kitty. In some ways I think I must have led a pretty sheltered life if a cat dying was like this supreme moment of grief for me. And it's not l have led a sheltered life, at all . . I've basically lost everything. A few times, but holding kitty as the vet pushed those meds in . . I have never felt grief on that level. It was like a movie. Me holding her face, choked up and sobbing. You'd think that's the hard part and maybe it was, but living without her isn't proving to be easy either. When I got home from the vet, she was in a box. I wrapped her in her favorite blanket and then picked a spot in the garden. A nice perch on top of a hill overlooking the bird bath. I've been at this maker thing now for 15 years and have had my fair share of moments. Burying her was one of them. It's weird how things come together when they do. A confluence of intents magically seeming to all arrive in that magical moment and with that bringing meaning right when you need it the most. I've learn to trust those moments. I had a lot of those with kitty. At the vet, I really wanted to take her home. I wanted her to die at home. I also didn't want her to suffer though. I remember holding her and speaking to her with intent, wanting to know what she wanted and she was just so chill. She was ready. As a maker you learn to deal with strong emotions. We connect to them differently and with emotions this powerful it has been quite the ride. It is odd because the pain at times is terrible, but that sense of connection and love is so beautiful that it makes all of the grief and requisite sadness honestly worth it. I suppose that's the point though. Living a life that is worth going through the pain of dying. I'm learning a lot through this experience and sometimes I am torn about that. I feel like finding joy in exploring grief is at times almost a dishonor to kitty. I really don't believe that, but it is a peculiar thing to experience. I find myself opening up and being unable to do anything but run straight at it in classic maker form. I believe that's it for now. It's a lot to process and deal with. I tend to sort of just go at these things alone, but I am part of a community here and that's what this space is for. Talking the weird stuff out, sharing and exploring things that a lot of people just don't care to explore. I attached a photo of kitty. If you have an animal at home, give it a hug for me ❤️ -Nick 891ae6c8-812c-493d-927e-bf5a8e7ff9de.jfif

Hi Hollow, have you looked into requesting a healing on the healing page of this site? Here is the link: https://www.shamanscave.com/shamanic-healing/shamanism-healings-at-shamanscave There is also a self-healing technique called recapitulation. The basics can be found here: https://www.shamanscave.com/shamanism-the-recapitulation/the-recapitulation Im sorry you’re going through the things you described. I’m also very sensitive to cities and all the energy that’s in them, sometimes it’s just that sensitivity to them that can cause the restlessness, but if you feel something more is going on don’t hesitate to contact the healing lab, it’s free and the healers here are happy to help. The recapitulation self-healing technique is good getting a better handle on your own energy versus outside energy as well. Kind regards, cammie

There is a spirit I feel that targets me to make me feel restless. it seems like its very strong and present near urban environment and technology etc but not when I am out in nature away from those types of electrical fields. I tend to feel at rest if I am alone out in nature somewhere. However it doesn't seem like I am ever capable of feeling restful, relaxed or have bodily peace any other time. i have a lot of medical things that make it that certain outside stimulus can trigger pain or seizures. The weird thing is that it seems I am extremely unlucky where its like there is a constant string of things that dont allow me to rest. Like for example I can go to a park and finally feel restful for a brief second and then someone will come around with some kind of power tools (leaf blowers etc) to trigger me again. Even my family have recognized and made jokes of how unlucky I am. I feel like all of those events are too much to be a coincidence because it seems like its the stuff like that is non stop. Seriously, it seems like this kind of thing lines up to torment me and it has been ongoing for a few years now. Not allowed to have a full restful nights sleep because something will wake me up. Not being able to lie down to rest normally because a loud noise will trigger me again ( i have hyperacsuis and reflexive epilepsy.) Really hoping that anyone who can help me out through this process. talk through it. Maybe try to help me identify the problem. Its been so long like this and with other medical struggles its been really difficult to bear with. To whoever reading this, bless your soul

Greetings, I thought I should post a note about changes to the websites and what that means as far as classes and such are concerned. Currently, there are three web sites, https://shamanscave.com which has become primarily an informational site as it was originally. Https://caveshamans.com which is the class site. Https://archives.shamanscave.com where students can find their class logs from the old shamanscave site. The evolution of the sites has taken several versions and about three years. There was a great deal to reorganize and add in hopes of bringing everything up to modern web standards. Caveshamans has multiple forms for class listings and offers chat, private chat, streaming classes, conferences for multiple attendees and private video chat. Blogs were moved to caveshamans and as a registered user you have access to roughly 150 logs from past public discussions. It was important to us that we provide more for students than just simply taking a class and while we aren't finished adding features yet I think we've made a good start. Shamanscave has been regorganized and cleaned up to make articles and information quickly available from the main menus rather than having to wander through too many areas searching for specific topics. We hope the changes make things easier to find and use, niteshad

Exactly Mandy. My death was telling me "You are still thinking that you have time but think about it again." Emotional reactions, unhealed traumas, daily routines are really strong and they can easily steal our time. And I forgot to add this detail in my post. At that moment, one of the things that came to my mind very fast was about my old intents. and old actions The old intents whose their expiration dates have passed and the old routines that make me heavy/slow. My death was telling me "The old intents shouldn't renew, they shouldn't be updated but they should be deleted ( and be taken their energy back ) And it is same for your old routines. From now on, new intents, with a powerful engine ( energy body ) should be created and followed." Sellerman's grandmother's death and my car's were similar; both of them were old enough and they were corresponding to my old intents. It was a really powerful sign for me. So true, to feel its intensity is really makes you feel stronger. And, somehow, you can see the outcome as you wanted. The problem for me is, not only these kind of things confirm that I'm on my way of Big Intent but also they confirm that I'm still acting like a fool. I'm not sure I could be the master of will like old Makers were but again, I'm thinking, I have no option other than being a warrior Maker. I can't see any other option to 'risk' my life for than being a warrior Maker. Oh, I think my Other is sometimes on the process but out of my control. He is soo agressive and impatience. Connection between me and him is not strong right now, that's what I feel. And yes, sometimes, I never waste my energy for the things that I wanted to reach an outcome. And I confirmed that the speed of the intent is faster than the speed of the light

{{Ogun}} "I think, I’m a lucky guy 😊" ... No! You're a master of intent guy I just read your post just nodding my head. Especially at the part about will and death and time. Maybe because we are the same human age. If I might add, I've been thinking a lot about (and using) Will and time lately too. One thing I found that helps make your Will stronger is to.. actually feel it's intensity and actively make it more intense. The old makers were masters of Will, which makes total sense given the short life spans of people and how as you explained developing and using your will saves time. To say it another way, perhaps, is to feel and grow the power of your Will and make it even concentrated, so that when you apply it your intents become outcomes faster, as you said. Something that happens too, when you do this: 1) your Other develops more rapidly, and 2) intents can be come outcomes instantly, without you even trying so much. Congratulations on your new car! ❤️ Eman

Hi everyone. It’s been a long time I couldn’t share anything here. But that doesn’t mean Makerish things aren’t happening to me anymore… Conversily, these kind of things are becoming like my daily routins ( and I’m still having problem about believing them like, how they could become 😊 ) Well, last year, at Master of Intent class, I had set my intent about upgrading my car. It was spring’23 and I was planning to upgrade my car at winter’24. After heavy busyness days of summer and autumn, with the new year I would buy a newer model car. I had set my intent for my car. My old car was a 19 years old, at 159.500 kms, Opel Corsa. It had painting issues but had a good condition engine. I had never had troubles with its engine during traveling. Actually, I was loving my car. But, I was also thinking that it was too old to sell to someone and every passing year, this selling posiibility would be less. It was winter time and although I remembered my intent, I postponed renewing process of my car. I was thinking like that “Come on Ogun. It’s working great with no issues. Noone will buy this car, you also know it, it’s too old to sell. And it needs painting which will make its selling price down. Don’t sell it and buy another car.” Actually it was true. I was checking on the internet for the prices of second hand Opel Corsa. There were over 10.000 advertisements about that model but of course with different year/configurations. I could have found only three or four same category Corsa and their prices were between 320.000 – 400.000 liras. Too much alternatives were making its price down and people would prefer to buy newer models. It would be very hard to sell it for sure. And without selling it, buying a newer model would be really hard for me. “I should put at least 400.000 liras more to buy a good one but without selling it, I would buy another same age car.” I was worrying about it. I was almost sure that I would buy a newer car in 2024 but how, I really didn’t know. Also, I had created an image of a new car on my mind, I was sitting in it and trying to be familiar with its design. I was planning to buy again an Opel brand car. That brand was good enough for me. Only, the problem was just selling my old car. Days were passing so fast, plus, having gigs daily and working without day off was making me little nervous. Painting problem was always reminding me my intent about my car. I was planning to buy the newer one at winter’24 but it was almost the end of the summer. Thankfully, my old car was working properly and I was going hotels by my car. “I think, at the end of this tourism season, I will do something serious about my car. Maybe, I will take it to a service, let them paint it as new and repair all the textile and plastic parts inside. It will be an old but new one. And I will not have to pay for a newer model. Until its engine die, I can drive. And maybe, I can buy a new one in the next years without selling it.” I was postponing my intent and I knew it. Actually, economic crisis in my country was making me scary about money. I was afraid of spending money for a newer car. And other thoughts on my mind ( the mind which is trying to kill me : ) ) were trying to make me feel uncourage, disappointed. So, fear, again was blocking me about doing something: “Selling it at a proper price will not be easy. What to do? How to do?” bla bla bla… One day, it was 16 of august’24, I was going for a gig with my friends to one of those hotels by my car. At a cross road, a minibus like a caravan, crashed my car from the left tyre. He was driving so fast and my car broke, couldn’t move. Thankfully, nothing bad happened to me and my friends in my car. But my car’s situation was very bad. Long short story, after one month, the insurance company of my car called me and they offered me two things; one was to repair it and the other one was no repairement but only to pay for my car. They would buy it from me. I asked, how much money would they pay for me and they replied, 370.000 liras! OMG! Of course, I accepted their second offer. It was a very bad car accident but the result of this accident was taking me to the path of my intent. I was feeling, my intent had moved from the Potential and passed through the Possibility. I was at the Probability part and I was feeling I was so close to the Outcome. After that phone call, in one week, I saw that money in my bank account. And guess, I have a newer model car now. It’s Opel again, like in my intent. Selling my old car was never hard and also, the second hand car which I intend to buy for was in Antalya. I think, I’m a lucky guy 😊 My intent about my car reached to the Outcome and I’m still asking, “How could it become?” It just became in a way that I couldn’t guess. That’s how my intent worked. I want to add one more detail about this process. I went to a car gallery after I collected enough money to buy a newer car where I found my potential one, Opel Mokka. I asked him if it’s possible or not to make a test drive. I was on the test drive. At that moment, I really liked that car and decided to ask more questions about Mokka and of course, wanted to show it to a car expert if everything is ok with it or not. While on test driving, a phone call came to the seller and he learned that his grandmother died. He excused me and said he had to return to the office asap and then go home. I said, no problem. He said me “Come please two days later, we can have more time to make a diagnosis for this car.” I went two days later, everything seemed fine for the car in general and I bought it. But that’s not the point, the point is there was a sign for me and it was the death of his grandmother. My death was trying to say me something by the help of seller’s garndmother’s death. I had an intent to upgrade my car but I was not clear about my intent. I wasn't walking my path of intent ( path of heart ) with determination. I could postpone the decisions I made and it was like a wasting of time. Although it was a wasting of time my intent was still on the process. I was in the car, the newer one, the one which decided to buy and my death was telling me something. There was a connection between my car and the sellerman’s grandmother; both of them were old and both of them had permanently stopped working ( living ) and it was made by the death. My death was trying to tell me about Will, about moving with Will. Like, when using will, outcomes will happen faster. After setting an intent, I should move with Will, otherwise outcomes may occur very late which is not good because old intents can be forgotten or can become unclear by time. And my death is the perfect reminder about the time. Moving without the knowledge of the certainity of my own death would make my intent’s outcomes late. I was still moving with fear, anxiety ( I can’t sell this old car. I can’t buy a newer one. What will happen in the next future in my country? Prices are raising every month, how will I find a good car? Bla bla bla… ) and it was blocking me to move as a warrior Maker. The death of my car changed everything in my mind. My thoughts changed ( had to change ) and fear has gone. And in one week after the sellerman’s grandmother’s death, I bought a newer car and it was the car that I really wanted to have 😊 🙃GUN

When it comes to finding or connecting with spirit animals, the experience can be highly personal and unique to each individual. Based on what you’ve shared, it sounds like you might have discovered two spirit animals during your meditation: the wolf, with which you have a strong and long-standing connection, and the buffalo, which seems unexpected to you. Seeing two spirit animals isn’t uncommon, and it doesn’t necessarily mean you weren’t relaxed or were trying too hard. Sometimes, different animals can represent different aspects of your life, energy, or journey. The wolf may symbolize qualities like loyalty, intuition, and a deep connection with instincts, which aligns with your existing sense of connection. The buffalo might represent something new that’s emerging in your life, like abundance, groundedness, or resilience. Instead of being concerned, consider embracing both animals as part of your spiritual journey. The presence of two animals could suggest that you’re being guided in different ways or that you need to balance different energies within yourself. It’s great that you’re open to exploring and learning more about this path. Continue with your exploration whether through meditation, reading, or discussing with others. Each step you take helps deepen your understanding and connection with these guiding forces. Remember, the journey is personal, and there’s no right or wrong way to experience it.